"So what..?" || Kevin Álvarez

||3|| First Day.

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Chapter warnings‼️‼️
- Substance abuse
- non-con interaction
This chapter starts off angsty I'm sorry it's part of the plot. There's a lot of Kevin at the end of the chapter to make up for it.
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       I finally make it home and make my way toward the front door. After opening it, I groan. Alejandro laid passed out on the couch. Wine bottle in hand.

       I started off by throwing away empty bottles and cleaning up a bit. It was way past our stay-at-home-maids' work hours and I didn't want to disturb them. It reeked of alcohol so bad I could almost taste it myself. Alejandro would at times furrow his brows or mumble profanity as he slept on the couch. I shook my head. Maybe I wouldn't be so against this arranged marriage thing if he wasn't such a dick.
       I finished up and it was time to do what I was dreading the whole time cleaning up; waking him. The times I've done this before didn't really go off well. I took a deep breath as I sat next to him on the couch. "Alejandro..." I said simply. I wanted to test how far gone he was. To my surprise he opened his eyes rather quickly. He stared at me for a couple moments. Then he began to cry.
    "oh y/n! I love you sooo muchhh," Alejandro threw himself on me and rested his head on my chest, "I'm so sorry I g-get carried away sometimes."
    I grimaced. He was heavy and it felt almost suffocating. "Okay Alejandro- can you please get off," I squirm trying to push him off but he was firm in place. His grip on my arms became stronger.
    "Why don't you say it back!?" His tone now harsher than before. Mood shifting instantly.
    "Alejandro your drunk!" I was losing my patience and felt extremely uncomfortable.
    "Say you love me back!" He stood up, now shaking me on the couch with a firm grip.
    "Alright! Love you-"
    I gasp as I feel his lips on mine. They were rough and tasted like alcohol.
    "I'm your fiancé, goddamnit!" He continued kissing me before I could catch my breath. I couldn't push him off with his tight grip on my wrist. When he got like this the only thing I could do to make him let go was kiss him back, so with a lot of resentment I did.
    "good" Alejandro murmured into our softening kiss. His hands roughly trailed on my waist and he grazed his lips on my neck. I felt like my skin was on fire and he only kept fueling it. I tried to hold back tears.
    "Can't wait till our wedding night." Alejandro huffed into my ear. He stood up and forcefully grabbed my chin to make me face him. I looked at him breathing heavily, I was filled with rage but it looked like I was about to sob. You disgust me, I thought.
    "Well, I'm going to bed" he stated simply walking away. I wiped my mouth, still tasting the alcohol. I started crying and darted to my room before any sob could escape my mouth. Running to the bathroom, I turned on the shower and quickly undressed myself. I wanted to get every trace of him gone. I ended up scrubbing my skin so hard, parts of it stung and had become red. By the time I got out, my eyes were puffy from crying so much.
    I went to bed but I couldn't sleep too well. I tossed and turned for hours thinking about the inevitable. The pathetic man I was engaged to. I'm doing it for mom and dad, I thought. If I didn't marry him I put the company in danger. Alejandro's family had too much control over my father's funding. I could make us go into debt for god's sake. I wished I had a choice. I always thought that I would get married to a man I loved. When I was a little girl I wanted to marry someone that would make me feel safe.
    After what seemed like forever, I was finally able to fall asleep.

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    What's going on? I turned to my side and see a man walking by me. He had his hand intertwined with mine and I realized his face was a blur. Who...? I look forward and see a red carpet. It's an isle and the church I'm in is beautiful. I realize I'm wearing a wedding dress. No.. I still had time.. The church seems to be empty but if I squint, I see a man and a priest at the end. Stop walking. But I couldn't, the faceless man, who I now assumed was my father, wouldn't budge. He kept dragging me further.
I don't want to! I try to scream but nothing comes out. I could feel my chest tighten. Suddenly, I'm transported to the faceless priest and I'm holding hands with the faceless groom. I look around frantically. I don't want this wedding! The empty church was suddenly filled with even more faceless people. The groom's blurred face materializes into Alejandro and my heart sinks. He's smiling. I look around at all the blurred faces. My eyes focused on a man. His face wasn't blurred and it became increasingly clear. Kevin? I question. His face looks sad? Angry? Disappointed? It was unreadable but definitely not happy.
    My head snapped back to Alejandro as I feel his grip tighten on my wrists. I turn to look back at the blurry people but the church was empty again. Except, for one person laser focused on me. Kevin. I grew even more confused. Why is he here? I kept looking at Kevin until I realized the grip had disappeared. When I looked back, Alejandro and the priest were gone. I turned my full body to face Kevin, who was still sitting quite far. We just looked at each other not saying anything. I took a step forward.
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