Gods Can Fail (Book 1)

Chapter 23 - In Doubt

Tarnael had declared himself the king of the angels on the day of his father's burial, yet the official proclamation had not been orchestrated. The announcement needed to be executed in a grand and ceremonial manner to legitimize Tarnael as the supreme leader of these divine beings. The cardinals declared that this significant day was exactly one week away, making it a momentous occasion for him.

"Ahhh! Ahhh! AAAAHHH!"

The bed rocked as Tarnael had, let's say a sexual experience with an angelic girl. The girl grabbed the quilts, the blankets with her fragile fingers, as she experienced this erotic act.

"O-Oohhhh!"

Everything came to a halt. Tarnael took deep breaths, his gaze fixed on the girl's face beneath him, a mixture of love and eroticism lingering in the air.

"Your Majesty... It was an amazing experience," the girl said, catching her breath from the exhaustion of their passionate encounter.

Tarnael layed on the bed next to the girl, staring at the ceiling through the darkness of the room. "Breathe, breathe, just breathe," he whispered to himself, allowing the tranquility of the moment to settle around them.

"Is there something wrong with you?" asked the girl, her voice filled with concern as she observed Tarnael in the dimly lit room.

"I don't know if I will be able to be a king," Tarnael admitted in a quiet voice, revealing a vulnerability that contrasted with his regal title.

"What do you mean?" asked the girl, her tone tinged with curiosity, as she sought to understand the inner turmoil that had prompted Tarnael's uncertainty.

"I don't know if you understand the feeling when you are filled with responsibility, and in the end, you can't do anything. Nothing of their high volume that you can't mentally handle. You are afraid that one day you will leave them. I think about this often. I don't know if I will really have what it takes to be a leader. I lived my whole life behind my father's shadows. Behind the shadows of the decisions he made. I have always been locked inside my thoughts," said Tarnael, his gaze fixed on the ceiling as if he was lost in his own world, sharing the weight of his uncertainties.

"If you feel closed and afraid of responsibilities, maybe it's time to stop and reflect on what really makes you happy. It's not always easy to change your path, but it is an important step towards finding yourself," said the girl, offering words of wisdom and encouragement to Tarnael in his moment of vulnerability.

"You say that I can find myself by not being myself?" said Tarnael, his gaze still fixed on the ceiling, contemplating the paradoxical nature of the advice given.

"It's true. A person may experience times when they feel they have lost themselves or are no longer connected to who they really are. This feeling can happen for many reasons, including parental influence, social pressure, or life experiences and events," said Igorus, seated at the table with Kaies, further exploring the complexities of self-discovery.

"Work responsibilities often make me feel this way. It's interesting to think that you can identify yourself in such an irrational way, doing what you don't like to do. What about you, Igorus? Did you recognize yourself playing the role of the general?" Kaies asked, delving into the shared experiences of navigating identity and responsibilities.

"Yes, Kaies. I can say I know him," Igorus murmured to himself as he soared over the Guhojre forest, reminiscing about the conversation he had shared with his brother.

Flying alone, Igorus soared above the trees of the Guhojre forest. Below, he witnessed mythological creatures living their lives—nymphs, centaurs, multicolored panthers, unicorns, and many others, each contributing to the vibrant tapestry of life in the forest. Yet, amidst the enchanting spectacle, Igorus couldn't shake the realization that his closest companion had never had the chance to experience such wonders. In every creature, he saw fragments of memories shared with that absent person, a poignant reminder of the unique connection they once had.