~ NICK AND CHARLIE ONESHOTS ~

Missing and a lot of drinking

Af first I thought I should not do this. But still, I feel so miserable that I think I deserve this. I walk inside and the rush of guilt and worry disappears. My lust to have a drink multiplies when I see multiple couples hanging out together. "Okay Charlie we're just going to relax, I hope it makes you feel better." Tao mentions. "Sure." I say, even though that's not my plan at all. I want to drink so much that I would forget who Nick even is. I feel the warmth that Nick left me the last time he hugged me. The last smile he gave me before he stepped inside his train. I miss him so much already and it's been 4 hours. We walk and we spot Tara and Darcy. They're happy together, Tara isn't two and a half hours away from Darcy. "Hey Char, I heard you dropped Nick at the train station today." I hug her trying to hold my tears. "Yeah that's right." she pats me on the shoulder. "We'll I think you deserve a drink for that." She snips her fingers at the bar tender "hey, can this young boy have a drink, a strong one, his boyfriend left for uni." the bar tender nods, turns around and grabs a drink. "Sorry to hear, that. Must suck." The guy says to me while handing me my drink. "Yeah, sure." I feel myself tearing up again so I take a big sip. While that is happening, behind me Elle shows up. "Hey guys." She says. Giving me a big hug and then Tao. She kisses him intensely. "What? I gotta make the best out of him before I leave next week." She says after everyone looks at her in shock. "Don't remind me that Tara will be going too." Darcy says whining while pulling her girlfriend closer by her hips. "Darling, you will go with for the first few nights." Tara reminds her. Darcy nods putting her arm around her girlfriends shoulder. "Oh yeah of course, my mum is pissed again and she kicked me out. She always needs a few weeks and then I can go home again." Elle steps forward and hugs Darcy. "We're so sorry." Darcy nods. "Thanks."

I still don't feel really that drunk after my third drink. But I will not give up! I can't handle seeing Darcy and Tara together knowing they'll see each other most of the time, and Tao and Elle still have a whole week together. I'm all alone. A friend I met during the becoming head boy process gets me another drink after hearing about Nick leaving. It spreads to school fast apparently. "Thanks." I say after he comes back with both of our drinks. We talk for a while but he meets some other people he knows and leaves me behind again. I stay on the dance floor for a little while before I hear a recognizable voice: "Heyy Charlie Spring." he puts an arm around my shoulders and I flinch. I kinda forgot Harry Green failed this term and he needs to do the year over again. I laugh at him because I really don't know what else to do. Most of the time Nick would step in right now and say something to Harry about him being a dick or that he needs to leave me alone. It always makes me feel so safe that there was someone to say that. I never really had that person when I got bullied. "Missing Nick already, huh?" Harry says with his fake cool voice, God everything about him irritates me. "Yeah, kinda." He pats my shoulder aggressively "yeah me too, man. This team could use him in rugby because Charlie, you don't wanna know." Harry sighs loudly. Why does he have to do everything so loud??? "You are a world champion compared to them" well thanks for making me feel better, like not at all. I really want to say that he should step up his game if he wants to win, but I don't have the confidence.

Eventually Harry leaves and I feel like shit. I join the rest again. "I'm gonna get a drink again." I say. After having finished that one Elle forced me to dance with her. I'm too drunk to even care if someone is watching. While dancing I get more drinks pressed in my hand from Tao. I think he lost count on how many I had because he thinks this is my fourth. We dance, talk, drink till we sit down to take a breath and Darcy gets us all a drink again. Some of us don't take one, but I thank Darcy for offering. After that one I get one myself and after around half an hour that one is kicking in. Everyone is still talking but for me it's just a blur, I need to keep stand against a wall. "Bathroom" is the one word I can get out before I leave the group again. When I get there I just sit there on the toilet. I grab my phone and the light of the phone doesn't help my headache so I turn it down. Something in my brain wants to call Nick and not one brain cell thinks about how it's 11 am and he's resting from his big travel. So of course, after a few beeps I hear the voice mail. Drunk me starts crying. I really needed to hear his voice, or not even his voice, just him breathing. That sounds so stupid, but it's true. While I sob on toilet with my legs up my phone starts ringing. I need to wipe my tears to see it's Nick calling. I'm relieved that he still picked up. I answer.