February 26th, 2023

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TW: HEAVY DETAILED SH IN THIS PART



I've relapsed and lost all my progress.

The blood which dripped from my wrist was... bright.

It was fresh.

I still had my blade in hand, and it was covered in my blood.

I really needed to stop, but the pleasure was so fantastic. I loved the feeling of it trickling down my arm.

I enjoyed the feeling of warm, fresh blood dropping from my wrist down against my thigh. It felt... pleasing. 

And I couldn't get myself to stop, but honestly,

I needed to stop. I needed help.

I heard my phone ring.

Horror filled my face -- It was one of the people I was closest to. 

And they were calling me on facetime.

I answered, putting my phone facing the roof.

"Hey, where are you?"

"Uhm. In my room, why?"

"Can I see? I heard you got new posters!"

"Not right now, I'm changing."
"I'll call you back."

That was a close call.

I quickly ended the call, as I lied about "changing" my clothing. 

The reason I lied; if I told my closest friend, she'd call the police. I fear confinement.

I feel so sick. 

I hate this.

"You"

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