I'm tired.
Tired of life.
Those were the words that ran through my head daily. Alongside those were the occasional thoughts of "You should run and jump in front of a bus!" or "Relapsing will just let you be happy~"
These occasional thoughts... pain.
I couldn't get rid of them.
It only increased my strong urges.
I looked in the mirror.
As gorgeous as I was, I was a victim of abuse ever since I was young.
It wasn't physical abuse, though.
I was one who suffered through mental abuse. Consistent yelling, and constant pressure on my schoolwork when I was in high school. After that, it was over.
It was just like my parents used me for 5 years of greatness, and then gave up on me.
I'm so tired. I'm tired of having to be perfect and pretty.
I don't have a true sense of love; I've been aromantic ever since I was born.
The underlying fear that one day I'll end it all because of something or someone stupid is terrifying to me, but I can't do anything to stop it.
I'm planning to make another attempt soon, or at least relapse. I need to get my mind off of things.
I'm going through so much, and I don't think I can make it another night.
"Nina,"
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