The red-coat girl

All that im living for

She throws off her skates in anger.
"FUCK." She spits out through tears.
"Why do I have to be so fucking fat?" Yulia slumps to the floor, tears streaming down her porcelain skin, her eyes, red and puffy.
After a couple of minutes, she picks herself up shoving her skates into her bag, putting her shoes on and heading to the gym.
Hours past since she entered the gym, she done nothing but work out, and she still has another training session on the ice in an hour.
After another 30 minutes on the treadmill, she gets off the treadmill, grabs her stuff, and leaves the gym to head back to the rink for another training session.

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Yulia tightens her skates before getting on the ice, she starts to warm up on the ice, after she has completed her warm-up she skates over to her coaches, ready to hear what she'll be doing today,
"You'll be doing a full program run through of your free skate," says Eteri
Yulia looks at her and sighs, "this is going to be a long day." She mumbles to herself, before heading to the center of the ice to set up for her program.
Her music starts, she is skating to Schindler's List, she begins skate, she skates like she has never skated before! It was going so well, until she wasn't, her first jump is coming up, a triple lutz - triple toe, Yulia is terrified, her jumps have been horrible all day, she's barely landing any of her jumps, she knows if she messes up she's not going to hear the end of it from Eteri. "I have to land this, I have to." She mumbles to herself as she sets up for the jump, she jumps, it was going great, until she fell on the landing, "it's okay, it's okay," she mumbles to herself as she continues skating, "it's s just one jump, i still have more." Yulia mumbles to herself anxiously, she knows she need to land her jumps, she has no choice, otherwise she will be yelled at by Eteri. Yulia sets up for her next jump, her double axel - triple toe - double toe, she jumps, she lands the double axel, she goes for the triple toe, she lands it! She goes for the double toe, she falls. "fuck," Yulia says to herself, "why can't I land these jumps?" She asks herself as she continues skating, knowing she can't stop, not until the program is finished.
Her next element is a spin, "that's easy," Yulia thinks to herself as she enters her spin, she was correct she completes the spin perfectly, not a flaw in it, she heaved a sigh of relief, she continues on, Yulia hears her coach Eteri scream out to, "more emotion Yulia, more emotion!" She does as Eteri says and increases the emotion she is putting into her skating, she sets herself up for her next jump, her triple flip, she's terrified, she has been falling on this jump all day, she enters into the jump, she jumps, and she lands it! Yulia let's out a huge sigh of relief, it's the first time today she's landed it. Her next jump is her double axel, Yulia is confident with this jump, she knows she can land it, it's her best jump, she sets it up, she jumps, and she lands it. Yulia feels her exhausted start to take over, she hasn't eaten, all she has done is train and work out, she continues skating her program despite the obvious hunger she is feeling, but she refuses to eat, she can't put on anymore weight, not when the Olympics are in a couple of weeks. She sets up for her triple loop, she falls, she knows Eteri is going to have a field day with this. "It's okay, just a few more elements left, and then I'm done." Yulia says to herself as she enters her spiral, her last jump is up, her triple loop, "I've got this." Yulia mumbles, setting up for her jump, she jumps, and falls, "FUCK!" She says angrily, she huffs and enters her spin, she does the spin perfectly, her spins are always perfect, always. Now her her Ina Bauer is up, she does it, and moves onto her last spin of the program, she does her spin, perfect of course, her spins are nothing but perfect, her program ends, she sighs, knowing what is about to happen. Yulia skates over to Eteri, Eteri stands there arms crossed over her chest, angry, before Yulia even has the chance to say something, Eteri starts yelling, "YOU CALL THAT PERFECT?" Eteri screams, "I TOLD YOU YOU NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT, YOU ARE TO FAT, IT'S MESSING UP YOUR JUMPS." Tears start to weld up in Yulia's eyes, "and now you are crying like a baby!" Eteri spits out angrily.
"Baby's don't win the Olympics, and fat girls don't win the Olympics," Eteri continues angrily, "You want to win? Then act like it. Don't give some half assed performance and act like that'll get you an Olympic gold!" Tears are now streaming down Yulia's porcelain skin, "You know what, get out of my sight, and don't come back until you want to take this seriously!" Eteri states angrily.
Yulia skates off before Eteri can say anything else about her.
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She enters the locker room, ripping her skates off her feet in anger, before shoving them in her bag, tears still streaming down her face. "Stupid, fat bitch." Yulia states about herself. She puts her shoes on, angrily. "Can't even land your stupid jumps." She grabs her bag. "Never going to win the Olympics, fucking fat bitch." She leaves the locker room quickly, she heads towards the door, to leave and go home, she reaches the door, Yulia pushes it open with anger and storms off, she heads home, angry, and upset. "fat girls don't win the Olympics." She says to herself as she leaves.