diary of a boy

lake

February 10, 1991
Hi diary,
we are still at the cabin.

as soon as everyone else unpacked we all went to the lake across from the cabin and swam.

i sat on the deck playing with my bracelet. the bracelet luke gave me as a gift on my 14th birthday.

come and swim mike, luke said surfacing from under the water catching me by surprise.

he pulled at my legs causing me to go under. we swam and soon everyone went into the cabin.

i layed in bed engulfed in the covers warmness. luke was taking a shower allowing me to be in my thoughts.

i hated being alone. only my thoughts and i.

i felt a rush of sadness wash over me. i hated this feeling.
it was the confused feeling i felt in my gut.

it confused me and it made me hate myself.

I hated myself. My thoughts.
Thats why I had a diary, to express my feelings somewhat.