December 3, 1993
Hello diary
I was alone with Luke.
sorry about that. he chuckled, running a hand through his beautiful blonde hair.
i admired him so much.
luke, promise you wont laugh or anything? was all i said.
he nodded looking at me seriously.
i began again.
its taken so much thought and processing and decision making to be able to tell you. i cant take the sleepless nights, the nights i cried to sleep, the thoughts of rejection from everyone once id tell them. i cant take it any more. i just need to let my friends know. I just need to let you know.
i was speaking truthfully from my heart. i was telling him how i felt .
get to the point mike luke said
looking at me impatiently.
i felt as if i were about to vomit, i felt nauseous. i felt extremely nervous.
yet i was ready for his rejection.
i like boys. i spoke.
I didnt tell him I liked him.
I am still too afraid.
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sorry i havent updated in like 2 days i think. SORRY! i love you!!!
ill double or triple update today
