Raising a Youtube family (Dan Howell & Phil Lester)(boyxboy)

chp 15: Love equals love

Hey guys so I know I haven't posted in a month theres just been a lot happening personally in my life. Also I have summer school from 7 am to 12 15 so thats fun...Not really. Oh yeah I also got my permit so I can drive with an adult in the car now. But sadly 2 weeks ago I attempted Suicide and I really needed to look on why I should even be here. I felt really sad so my energy went down. I'm sorry guys I try to kill myself I just was in a dark place....but I'm back at least.

Dan POV

I promise I will never leave my family and I will love them forever no matter what

So the next day the doctors released me from the hospital. I was so freaking excited to go home and get rest in my condo and be with my family. Sadly though my car is fully crushed but my insurance is covering it and helping me get a new one.

"Hello my wonderful husband" Phil greeted me with Dil in his arms wearing a knitted sweater, black pants, green converse and a knitted beanie with skulls all around it. My husband was wearing a star wars thermal,blue jacket, silver pants and white converse with black glasses. Whilst for me I was just in torn up jeans, a emoji shirt, and black converse. No jacket even though it was freezing outside.

"hello guys how you doing.. you guys look like like you haven't slept in days" I said worried for my family.

"we're to worried about you papa" Dil said slightly yawning and rubbing his eyes.

"some people need a nap and by some people I mean you guys" I said with commanding tone on the last part.

"fine but your sleeping with me Dan" Phil said with a yawn.

"ok, can't wait to sleep with my husband again" I said kinda of excited to snuggle up with my husband and hold him in my arms.

We then got in Phil's car and drove back home. When we got home I put Dil to sleep and then went to go sleep with Phil. When he saw me he just hugged me and seemed like he wasn't going to let go...which I didn't mind.

I slept for 5 hours then woke up trying my utter best not to wake up Phil or Dil. Which went pretty well. I then walked to the living room and looked at all my tweets and Instagram feed. what surprised me the most was how when Phil posted what happened to me online it got so many comments and You-tuber's asking to pray for me and people going onto to my social networks telling how much they love me and my family.

Tears started flooding my eyes as I saw all these beautiful caring comments. Everyone of them was amazing, kind, and full of love and I felt like my heart was going to burst. It took me a few minutes for the tears to end.

I then get up and go onto my computer and post how I'm ok and how my family needs some time to recuperate after my car accident so we wont be on youtube for a while. I then all these videos sent to me of crying fans who are happy I'm alive 7 minutes after I posted that update. I just never knew love from fans could equal me feeling really loved

Sorry guys if this update is really short I'm trying to get back into the hang of things. I'll try to get update more I promise ok...BYE!!!!!!