On The Ice (boyxboy)

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a/n- just a little side note. i just read icebreaker, not the booktok one it's the gay one, and omg it's so good. you guys should read, but disclaimer it talks about depression and anxiety but it's shown so accurately. easily my favorite read ever! anyway hopefully you're enjoying my story. ++it's a zero smut read which made it 10x better!

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CHARLIE'S POV

School went by quickly. I went through all the where were you and such, answering honestly. I'm surprised coach hadn't said anything about last night with the fight and all. He must've left earlier after practice, since we weren't quiet with it.

I mean he must know, right? It wasn't hard to miss seeing as I had a black eye and bruised chin, Logan being noticeably bruised as well. Not to forget, Ollie had bruised knuckles. I'm sure he'll find out and yell at us before the game.

Oh shit. How's our dynamic gonna work? I mean I'm not on the same line as Logan and Ollie is a forward on the first line. It'll just be weird on the bench, I guess.

Oh and I guess I forgot to mention the fact that the entire school figured out about my sexuality. Not that I was met with a lot of homophobia, just snickers and pointing which I couldn't care less about, which is progress compared to when Ronny kissed me at lunch. I needed to get over my bullshit from summer and stop being a coward. When I literally made Ollie feel like a piece of shit and ran into the bathroom.

Speaking of Ronny, I haven't seen her since Saturday. After all that happened. I mean should I apologize? She's the one that took advantage of me, and I guess she's just been avoiding me since I flipped out. I initially freaked out because what the fuck. And I guess maybe I should've been nicer? Hell, I don't know.

I just don't want Ronny to feel bad. Or maybe I do. I don't want her to hate me sounds better. I want her to realize she shouldn't have taken advantage of my drunken state, but I want us to be cool. I also don't ever want to kiss her again because that would just be weird as fuck.

I don't know. I'll just try to forget about it.

When I got home I found Mack at the island, eating a bowl of cereal. "Cereal?" I questioned.

She shrugged. I noticed her features tense. A question lined her eyebrows. I hope she isn't asking what I think she is. Or at least I hope she doesn't know, since it spread so quickly.

"Hey, what's up? Why are you looking like that?" I asked, trying to get her to tell me why the fuck she's looking at me like that.

"Charlie, people at my school were saying things. And I don't know if they're true or not but I just want to ask you, to hear it from you." She said. Okay then I definitely know what she's going to say.

"Okay." I said.

"Are you bisexual? I mean it's okay if you are I just don't like that being kept from me and I had to hear it from the boys on my hockey team." She said with sadness poking her dark eyes.

"Yes. Macky, I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I just had came out to Ollie on Saturday and I just wanted to get the hard part over with. I just didn't expect everything to get out so quickly. I was planning on telling you after the game tonight and everything." I said. I truly was sorry for not telling her. She's literally my sister for fucks sake. "I guess I was just scared to tell you. I mean with Dad and all." I looked at her. "Do you know why I came to live with you guys?" I asked.

"To see me?" She asked.

"Mack, I did miss you but I moved in permanently because Dad kicked me out. I was nervous to tell you." I said and hopefully she understands. I couldn't live with myself with my only sister hating me.