𝑽𝒆𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒕'𝒔 𝑫𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒚

Entry 2

Dear dairy,

It's still unbearable as hell here. Veneer is still as annoying as ever. He constantly complaining about how he swears his "food just moved" or that "the showers didn't have any hot water" I of course haven't talk to him a bit since we got here. But He keeps just complaining while we do chores and have to listen cause I have nothing to do! Not like I'm gonna touch all this gross stuff. While doing are chores. Ew. But once we get back to are cell it completely different. At least I noticed Veneer is. I still do the usually nothing. Well besides writing in here I do that at the end of the day it much easier.

Anyways so beginning of the day was TERRIBLE! Me and Veneer had to clean the bathrooms! There were bugs everywhere! I know that because I saw a lot and I keeped hearing Veneer complaining about how there were ants going up his arms. But the guards wouldn't let us leave till we cleaned so we had to.

After that we got to get lunch. They said we had some kind of "hamburger" but I swear that was just a pile of trash that just came from the bathrooms. I could have sworn I throw that extra pile into a trash bag

After that it was just the usually silent me and Veneer sit in for most of the day. Sometimes he will say something probably just to get it off his mind. Or he will try and see him I will talk to him. Which is never gonna happen. He eventually stopped after a while. Which made me kind of upset because at least when he did talk I didn't feel alone. Even if it was just a few words.

After that we had dinner which was the same thing. The trash pile they called a "Hamburger" and now I'm here writing about all of this complaining cause I can't do it to veneer. That will just give him the satisfaction he wants and I can't have that.

But I do miss someone responding to all my venting. Sometimes it feels good to hear someone say "oh no they didn't" to actually know that care to hear about what you have to say and actually listen. Veneer would do that when I would have a drama at school.

WHAT AM I SAYING!? THIS IS SUPPOSED TO BE EASY! HAVE I GONE SOFT!?

Maybe it's just the fact that he keeped trying even after what he did. Even though he did give up WHAT THATS STUPID! HES STUPID! WE DONT NEED HIM!...

God what the hell is happening to me. Is his kindness rubbing off on me!? UGH! I DONT KNOW! THIS IS TERRIBLE GOD HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO GO THOUGH WITH THE PLAN WHEN I AM CRUMBLING WITH THE NEAR LACK OF HUMAN INTERACTION!

At least when I didn't speak to him when he spilled my nail polish I had mom to ramble off to...

Just stay strong Velvet. What did the song YOU sang say! "You have got work hard to make it look easy" you got this...

You have to stay strong...

Love
Velvet