𝑽𝒆𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒕'𝒔 𝑫𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒚

Entry 7

Dear Diary

I asked Veneer the question the other day. I didn't expect me to lose my cool that much. I knew I was gonna open something that was sensitive but... I guess with everything that was going on I just couldn't take it.

But turns out he sticking with me cause. I'm his big sister. He told me that "I'd follow you anywhere." But what makes me so important that he wants to continue sticking by me? I know it's mostly some stupid cringe stuff like "cause I love you" or "cause you're my big sister"

But the way I treated him I'm still surprised he even still likes me. We started talking about childhood memories after I calmed down and I realized I have be pressing him for along time. Since I could talk I was doing it! Well besides are emo phase that was all him but how could he still love me after all that? I wish I could have realized this sooner before I forced him into becoming a fame sucking monster.

Well he didn't become one as much as I did but still! I guess this is enough closure for that right now. I don't wanna ask to many questions.

In addition I started looking back at some of my stuff from when I first got here. We're currently around 3 weeks so I guess alot has happened in a short amount of time. But We have both changed. At least I have I don't know about Veneer.

But in my first entry I told myself I would never forgive him. Never. But do I forgive him now? With everything I have learned and done. It's still a little ways away from an actually answer. I do feel a little salty about.... You know. If he wanted to make me happy why give up are one dream. My dream whatever. I know cause of the troll but he said he do anything no matter how crazy or something like that but anyways.

Maybe I will forgive him. In time but then again now that I really think about it he ruined are lives. Once we get out of jail how are we supposed to go back to being some what normal. We will get mocked outcasted. How are we even gonna find a place to live or find a job.

Everyone knows who we are. We're the biggest frauds in Mount Rageous dame it! We will never recover. Will we have to chance are names!? I hope not I love my name! Veneer on the other hand I would be find with changing considering he was named after teeth. What were mom and dad even thinking!?

But I think if one of us did had to change there name it would have to be me as much as I wish it wasn't. Veneer has gotten some what covered for all that stuff cause he told everyone. But me on the other hand.

I won't be able to go anywhere! Ugh! My life is over. Did he even think about what this could do to us before exposing us!? Think before you act! Anyways there no way people will forgive me after I almost killed a troll for gods sake. Will the trolls even forgive me?

I don't wanna worry about this right now it giving me a headache. Worrying about my life after jail is enough for right now. Like I'm gonna get out anytime soon. Why am I even worrying. We are 3 weeks in.

WERE NOT EVEN A MONTH IN! So I guess I have time. I have to worry about stuff happening right now. Which is why I even agreed to help Veneer with his hair. This guy needs a whole lot of gel. And spoilers

We obviously have none!

                             Love
                                      Velvet

( ok I know the transitions into different topics kind of suck. I am trying to fill in a lot of the feelings I had in the beginning and have updates on them. I still have some I need to look back on. And if you wondering "oh what about her plan to expose his secret!?" Shh that's coming I finally have a plan for where this will be going. Also for some reason I am overly conscious about my spelling and grammar in this chapter. So sorry if there is some mistakes )