𝑽𝒆𝒍𝒗𝒆𝒕'𝒔 𝑫𝒊𝒂𝒓𝒚

Entry 6

Dear diary,

This isn't my fault to. Is it? I thought he wanted this to. He could have just told me. Now I dont wanna expose his secret if this is so called "my fault"

There no point... But if he did tell me he just didn't want to use the troll I would probably wouldn't have. We could have just made some viral video or just taken more voice lessons. Like that was helping though. Maybe he knew that.

I can't believe he was willing to do this all for me. He knew all we were risking by using the troll yet he still did it... for me.

I still don't know how to feel about this or what I should do. I still feel like exposing him... but if he did do this all for me. Then I guess it is my fault. I pressed him to much.

Should I expose him now? After hearing this after receiving on this. Something in me says do it. This is his fault that we're here and then another part is saying but this all leads back to you. It is your fault. And I'm supposed to be a good influence on him. I am his big sister and yet it's more of the other way around.

If this is what jail does to you exposes the truth then I hate it even more now. This is to much for me. I'm done. This 2 1/2 weeks have been the worst in my life. Im in jail realizing how bad of a person I am. How bad of a big sister I am.

Maybe it's good he didn't get influenced by me. Everyone was right he is an angel. He can't do any wrong yet I do all kinds and he still goes down with me.

But why? After all I have done to him. Why would he still go down with me? Even when he knows what he is doing is bad and everything he could lose. Why?

He so ridiculous maybe I should ask him. Then again why would he want to hear from me. I'll just make it worse like I did last time. I'm the troublemaker. The bad apple. And now everyone knows that.

Now I know that.

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( heyy if you want a better understanding of this story make sure to read Waylor9 story called "Veneer diary" it will make the story idk more complete. Also if you notice that her signature isn't in that fancy font anymore I know. It isn't a mistake. I thought it would have been her just showing her mood and development cause like now she doesn't take the time to do that <3 or the fancy signature. Cause she now doesn't have only the book she slowing getting a better Relationship with Veneer so she doesn't focus that much time here anymore. And notice she isn't talking about her day a lot anymore only veneer. That shows how much she cares to know now. But anyways idk I'm rambling and I thought that was a cool detail to add. And I just don't know how to do character development that well so sorry if it seem out of nowhere that she cares now )