Queen Mary

Chapter XVI

Both Bianca and Colby fell asleep at some point, and I think Corey is snoozing too. Sam has headphones on and is staring out the tiny window at the end of the row. We've only been in the air for about twenty minutes, but so far everyone seems to be passed out. Johnnie is talking to me about a new video idea for when we get home. I turn t look at him, and a warmth spreads through me. He's my best friend. I mean so are the other guys but there's something different about Johnnie. I feel something different for him, something I'm not able to quite explain. Sure he's my best friend, but I've never felt something like this for any friend I've ever had. 

"So, what do ya think?" He asks, catching me off guard and bringing me out of my trance of admiration. 

"Yea I think that's a really good idea. We can grab the stuff we need for it when we get back home," I say to him and he grins at me. We pause for a few moments and I get the sensation of butterflies deep in my belly. "But hey I'll be back I gotta run to he bathroom quick." I say, getting up. I walk down the aisle past the other passengers and my heart is racing. I just needed some air away from Johnnie. All I wanted to do was kiss him, but I know for one he doesn't feel the same, but for two, what would the other guys think. But mainly I'm worried about Johnnie's reaction. 

When I get to the bathroom, I look in the mirror. I think everything over to myself about Johnnie. My feelings for him and what I should do about it. I splash some cold water on my face and take in how refreshing it feels. I take a moment to sit in the silence before patting dry and opening the bathroom door. When I do, I'm standing face to face with Johnnie. He pushes his way into the bathroom with me, and closes the door. I'm still kinda in shock when he looks at me and presses his lips to mine, lightly pushing me into the door. I cup his face in my hands and turn him around so his back is to the door. Our breath melts together, and my teeth brush against his bottom lip, and I move one of my hands to Johnnie's waist, pulling myself closer to him. We break away from the heat off our bodies intertwined together, and I look at him, our eyes locked. My left hand on his waist and my right cupping his cheek.

"Where'd that come from?" I whisper to him smiling.

"I uhm.. I just.. Look I've been wanting to do that for a really long time, but I was also really scared of how you'd react. And you got up so suddenly and I could feel something was up. So I gave you a few minutes but I couldn't stand it and I had to come show you how I feel... How I've felt for a while now.." He says shyly, avoiding my eyes, still anxious about what I'll say. 

"Johnnie I.. I don't want you to feel nervous about talking too me, about anything," I see the look of panic on his face as soon as I say this. "And the reason for that is you're my best friend. But not only are you my best friend, I have the same feelings for you. I left to go to the bathroom cause all I wanted to do was kiss you and I didn't know how you'd feel if I did," I tell him. He lifts his head and looks me in the eyes and he smiles. I see the tears welling in his eyes, and one falls down his cheek. I wipe it away with my thumb and kiss him softly.

"Well, we should probably go sit before someone realizes both of us are in the bathroom haha," I say to him. He laughs and I open the bathroom door, leading us out of the bathroom. We take our seats quickly, and after sitting for another twenty minutes before I feel Johnnie leaning on my shoulder. I look over at him and he's asleep. I can't help but admire him and everything he is. Yes, he's my best friend. But he's also my everything. I love him, and I know I can't tell him that yes. For fuck sake we just revealed we even had feelings for each other. I'm not sure either of us are ready for the whole love thing just yet. I'm excited to see how this week at Queen Mary goes, being able to comfort Johnnie when he's scared or freaked out by something. When we sleep, sleeping next to him. We booked a few rooms as not all of us will comfortably fit in one room together. I think Sam and Corey have a room, Colby with Bianca which is still a little shocking to me, and I'm bunked with Johnnie. The rooms are all right next to each other, however two of us will be sleeping in B340. And I'll be damned if it's me and Johnnie. And I don't think Corey will sleep there either, which leaves Colby and Bianca. Which honestly might be for the best. Colby gets jump scared, but the idea of something being there doesn't really scare him out of a place like it would with Corey. And after our first experience here I don't think I'm real comfortable sleeping, of all things, in that room. 

We have probably another half an hour until we land, and with Johnnie on my shoulder I plan on savoring every second of it. Johnnie and I have kissed before, but for the longest time I convinced myself that for one, it didn't mean anything to him. And for two, I also convinced myself that I only did it for laughs. Which wasn't true in the slightest, but I had to try to tell myself otherwise, or I couldn't live with the feelings I have for him. Which are strong, and I can't ignore them anymore, and I'm beyond grateful that I don't have to anymore. And that Johnnie feels the same way. Shit I really didn't expect him to be the one to walk into the bathroom hot and heavy, and by no means is that me complaining. I'm without doubt happy he did. To be able to express myself to him and finally be upfront about how I've been feeling for the longest time. 

"Attention, we will be landing at the Long Beach, California Airport in approximately ten minutes. Please fasten your seat belts for landing and for no reason remove them. After landing the flight attendants will notify you to remove your seat belts and grab your carry-on's and leave the plane. Please refrain from leaving your seats until you've been notified to do so, thank you for flying with us," The captains voice seems to boom over the speakers, causing everyone asleep to stir and wake up. Johnnie wakes but stays still on my shoulder and I rest my head on his.