Perfectly Unexpected

Part Four: Should I?

Okay, so at this point I knew I was definitely falling for the most mysterious Lucas Scott. I didn't know why, but something was drawing me to him. I was in my bedroom on a clear summer night when I saw something out my window. Lucas was standing there looking at the moon so intently. I stared at him for a long while until he suddenly turned his head and looked up, making eye contact with me.
"Shit", I said flustering to get down so he wouldn't see me anymore. 
Why would he be standing there just staring at the moon? I had no idea. I went to bed that night and dreamt about him....
I woke up the next morning to my mom yelling and screaming.  "Mom, what's wrong?" I asked her sleepily.
"You're fucking good for nothing, low life father has left his family again!" She screamed.
I didn't have anything to say to this because he did it all the time, but it never ceased to anger her.
"You're the one that started all of this to begin with!" She continued to scream as she got closer to me.

"Mom, I don't know what you're talking about," I stated.

"Give me your phone! Go to your room, and you are to have no contact with your piece of shit dad!" She demanded.

I didn't understand these short, violent encounters with.. well, my mom?.. Or was it my mom? I didn't know because it seemed like she became someone else in the two years the hell had been going on in my home..

"Should I just leave?" I thought to myself that night. "If I leave, maybe she'll finally be happy.. I mean, it seems like she is really convinced that I am the big issue. If I can cause my dad to be such a piece of shit, what does that make me..?"

I loved Carmen, and I was really falling for Lucas.. but what else did I really have to live for? I started to cry, but quickly made the tears stop by grasping my pillow and shoving my face into it.

I fell alseep that same night with that thought running through my mind....