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Thirty-Three\\

Slim\\

October 25th, 2015                4:45 A.M.

That's the date and time I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. Weighing 6 pounds and three ounces with dark brown hair and hazel eyes, Katelyn Giselle McCann was the newest love of my life.

The doctor and nurses allowed me to rest while they cleaned my daughter, but after all the work I've done trying to give birth to her, I wasn't tired anymore. I just wanted to hold her and dream of her future.

I was happy to have her, I really was. But at the same time, I was terrified. What if I wasn't the best mother for her? What if Katelyn got hurt or what if something went wrong in her life? Even with the necessary slap in the bottom to be sure she was alive scared me. As her tears flooded the room and her screaming cries echoed the perimeter, I just wanted to hold her and rock her and make sure all was alright.

"She's beautiful." Jason smiled as the nurse carried her away from me. I bit my lip and wiped my eyes.

"I didn't know it was possible to love someone so much and know them for just a couple of minutes."

"The beauty of motherhood." Daphne said with a smile.

Jason ran his fingers through my hair and smiled before planting a kiss on my forehead. "Ew, you're sweaty."

"I'm too happy to be angry." I chuckled through gritted teeth.

By now, I was moved to a separate room so I could rest, but I wasn't tired.

Jenna and the rest of the gang had arrived. Audrey looked around for the baby and pouted when she couldn't find her. "Where's my god daughter?"

"In the nursery." Jason answered.

"How do you feel?" Jenna asked, holding my hand. Kristen stood at her side, smiling down at me.

"My vagina hurts." I replied with a sigh.

"Wait, why?" Aubrey asked innocently.

"She had to shove a head through her pussy. Tore her walls the fuck up." Xavier commented. Chavez laughed but slapped his side.

"He's not lying. You know it'll be about six weeks until you can have sex, right?" Stella said. "Your walls have to get back together again so you can't be fucking all willy-nilly."

"I don't plan on having sex for a while." I said, glaring at Jason. He shrugged and smiled at me.

"She can still suck dick though, right?" He asked.

"Um, ew." Jenna coughed. "You like putting that in your mouth?"

"I do." Xavier said excitedly. "In fact, I'll do it as soon as we get home, okay babe?" He wrapped his arm around his partner.

"Do whatever you please, but no pussy action for a while." Daphne answered Jason's question.

"I'm just happy to see my baby." I said happily. "I'm a mom."

"Baby girl, you were a mom the moment you got pregnant." Stella said.

"I'm tired now," I yawned. "Don't mind me. I'm just going to take a nap." I said.

I yawned again and closed my eyes. I was glad to be surrounded by all my friends.

Jason\\

Brendon entered the hospital room and looked around. He turned to me and nodded.

"How is she?" He asked, referring to Slim. "What is it?"

It was only me and Slim in the room now, but she was sleeping so she wasn't aware of his arrival.

I haven't seen Brendon since before that stunt he pulled leaving Slim stranded. I've meant to go fuck him up but I never had time. Between work and looking after Slim and helping to pay the rent, I couldn't find the right time to confront him, but now we were alone and I was able to do whatever I wanted. And although I still wanted to hurt him for making Slim cry the way she did, I wasn't able to be angry anymore. She had forgiven him and was fine about it, but she still wasn't speaking to him. And I knew what he must've felt like because I was in that same position once, except he wasn't in love with her like I was.

"You're can't be here." I grumbled as I locked my phone.

"Why not?" Brendon asked. "Is she still mad about what I said? I apologized a thousand times and she said she forgave me."

"Yeah, but I didn't." I stood to my feet and walked towards him.

"Well do cares if you forgive me? I only care about Slim anyways." Brendon shrugged. "You mind if I wake her up? I want to congratulate her on the baby."

I grabbed him by his collars and shoved him against the wall. "Listen man, you keep fucking talking and I'll kill you." I threatened. "You and her may be fine, but we aren't. I promise you, if you make Slim cry the way she did because you can't keep your mouth shut, I will kill you without hesitation."

Brendon gulped and looked around, probably for something to hit me with. "You ought not to say that no more, Jason. I ain't scared of you anymore."

"That would be much more believable if you weren't pissing your pants." I said with an evil chuckle. "I'm so serious, if my girl cries because of you again, you won't live to see another day. I'll personally make sure of it."

"Can I go now?" Brendon asked, trying to keep a cold front.

"Yeah, and I don't want to see you in here anymore."

Brendon walked away as quickly as possible once I released him, but he turned around again and raised a finger.

"Can you tell her to call me when she wakes up?" he asked.

"Fuck off!" I yelled, throwing the closest item to me at him. It just so happened to be a glass vase filled with a bouquet of flowers that one of Slim's friends brought. Brendon closed the door to dodge the flying glass and Slim woke up as the vase shattered. Shards flew everywhere and Slim winced at the sound.

"What happened?" She asked. "Where's Katelyn? Is she okay?"

"Yeah, babe. She's fine. And nothing happened, I just got upset."

"Why? You want to talk about it?" Slim asked, getting ready to sit up.

"No. I'm fine. You should get back to sleep." I said, giving her a reassuring smile. She nodded and laid back down.

"I love you, Jason." Slim mumbled as she yawned. I mumbled an "I love you too" and sat back down on the chair. I picked my phone back up and unlocked it to finish playing online poker.

I was blessed to have a child now, and I had to start getting my shit together or my baby girl would get hurt and someone would fucking die. But even with the cover up that I got a job at Macy's, which I did on the side, I had to let Slim know that I was in the West Coast Drug Cartel, helping to run the Black Market with some of the most dangerous men and women ever to have lived in the United States.

I'm still a dangerous person to upset and I still ran my shit lowkey. I wanted to tell Slim, but I wasn't trying to lose her when we were just starting out our family. I was supposed to have settled down, yet I didn't.

I love her, and I love Katelyn, yet I was still too scared to tell Slim that I was still doing crime.