I told butters goodnight, but of course I never sleep.
I cautiously grab my diary from under my bed. I grab a lamp and turn it on to the lowest setting so butters can sleep peacefully.A pencil I need to sharpen pretty soon. I grip the wooden stick with led and write gingerly. Pretty handwriting has always been my thing.
"Jan 3, 2018 💔
Dear me, I got rejected. I really like him, he's so cute and the way giggles makes my heart melt. I held his hand and it felt like cotton candy. But he doesn't like me, I thought as much. I should be happy since it's a sin in God's image but, I can't help but feel confused"Well I didn't get rejected because he thought I meant as a friend. I need to just stop overreacting. I really need to man up and stop being a little baby.
Disappointment escapes my lips as I close the journal. Tucking it under my bed probably where there's dead cockroaches it's where my stupid feelings belong anyway.
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I can't sleep, I've been overthinking for the past 2 hours. I get up to grab a water, chugging it until it's half done.
Something catches my attention, he looks up at butters, hearing butters snore. So cute.
I secretly climb up the bed and lie down next to the sleeping boy. Looking at him makes my stomach do flips, and my heart race.
If only..
I frown and intertwine my skinny fingers with the smaller boys fingers. If only he could understand how I felt.
I kiss butters hand before gently climbing back down to my bed. Hopefully there's still a chance, I could just hangout with him more and we'll get to know each other a lot better. Maybe then he'll comprehend my love..
-310 (SORRY THIS WAS SO SHORT😭)
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