Lost Without You/A Jordan Knight FanFic✔️

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Alice cancels the wedding. We haven't talked in over two weeks. She asked me for time ... time to mourn the loss of what she had with Luke and his family, time to reconcile the part of her heart that knows she cheated on him no matter how hard we tried to justify our love being greater—destined from the day we met. I miss her, and it's hard to deal with the reality that she gave part of her heart, no matter how big or small, to another man.

"You should love her even more because she's the kind of woman who feels love and pain, who recognizes guilt and her imperfections and deals with them."

Mom tries to cheer me up while Lucy and Racer ride the four-wheelers around my parents' property like she never lost use of her legs.

"I know. It doesn't make me miss her any less."

"Has Lucy seen her?"

"Yes."

"And? How does she feel Alice is doing?"

"Fine." I stare out the window at the four-wheelers. "But Alice would act fine around Lucy no matter what."

"Jordan, what are you afraid of? She's already chosen you."

"I'm afraid that she's been on this wave of emotions over the past eight months—the car accident, me forced back into her life, the engagement, the truth about Austin's death. Now she's dealing with the end of her relationship with Luke. Will she realize she's rushed into too many quick decisions? Maybe she doesn't want to marry Luke, but maybe she doesn't really want to be with me either. Am I the default? Is she doing this for me? For herself? For Lucy?"

"Oh dear, you are lovesick and delusional. Alice loves you. Always has, always will. Maybe you should send her something. Just something to let her know you're thinking about her."

I nod slowly.

"Maybe."

Several days later, I head toward my truck after work. Guess who's sitting on my tailgate in a soft blue sundress, flip-flops on her feet, and red lips smiling at me? My heart does really weird things in my chest as my skin tingles from a rush of emotions—a rush of relief.

"Jordan the Thief, did you steal the shrubs from my front porch and replace them with a certain blue perennial?"

I toss my stuff into the back of my truck and make my way back to her. My hands casually slide into my back pockets.

"Maybe." I shrug.

"Were you sending a message?"

Her head cocks to the side.

"A message?"

She giggles.

"They're Forget-Me-Nots."

Biting back my smile, I nod several times.

"Huh. Interesting."

Alice hooks her fingers into my front pockets and pulls me between her dangling legs.

"Did you think I was going to forget you?"

"Maybe."

I curl her hair behind her ears and slide my fingers down her neck.

"I miss you. And Lucy's birthday is next week. And ... I miss you." I grin.

"I've been busy."

"Saying goodbye to Luke?"

"Packing. I think you should stop by my place on your way home and load up some of my stuff."

I smirk.

"Oh? Where are you going?"

"Home." She wraps her arms around my neck, pulling me down to her as her legs latch to my waist. "Lot of memories there."

I narrow my eyes, reminding her of the reason she moved in the first place.

"Yes. I didn't know what to do with those memories. I felt alone with them. I don't have to be alone with them anymore. So I want them. All of them. With you and Lucy."

"We should stop on the way to your place and get some hot chocolate. I know a cafe not too far from here that has great hot chocolate with extra whipped cream."

"I think I know that cafe." She grins.

I peck her lips. Then I kiss her again because it's been too long to settle for a quick peck. All of a sudden, I don't want hot chocolate, just her. With the whipped cream.

She pulls back, and I convince myself that I can wait.

"Meet you there?"

I help her off the tailgate.

"Better hurry. If some other dark hair man shows up before you ... well, I can't make any promises."

"Aw yes ..." I shake my head, opening the door to my truck. "That's right. You were never really mine."

She grabs my hand, squeezing it while gazing up at me with those eyes that fell in love with me so long ago.

"Jordan ... I've always been yours."