Family Don't End In Blood

Breathe (2 am)

Running may not have been our best idea. Adam was still adjusting, so was Ben, and now we have this new miracle girl. But I think I would implode if I didn't run.

We drove for hours. Me and Dean driving in shifts, he barely trusted me with Baby and he still didn't trust Cas with her. Which was fair. Cas has crashed two cars now, one being a two hundred thousand dollar car.

"It's getting late, do you want to stop up here or keep going?" Dean asked as a motel came into view. We were about 18 hours into the drive at this point.

"I'm not tired. Are you?" I questioned as Dean was yawning.

"I can sleep in the back seat if you want to drive a while. Do we know where we're going yet?" He asked as he pulled into the motel parking lot so we could decide.

"I've been looking for cases online, and I think there's one about 6 hours from here. " Cas said handing me his phone.

"Rural area, shredded beef. Ooh 5 missing kids and electrical storms that blew up a church. That's a case for sure." I read out from his phone. Both Dean and I's eyes growing wide.

"That sounds fun" was all Dean said smiling as he awkwardly climbed into the back seat using Cas as a pillow.

"Hey, if you get to sleep I get to have Cas up front. It's only fair." I protested.

"You can talk to him from back here." Dean argued as he adjusted himself.

"Fine, but hands where I can see them." I laughed as he stuck his tongue out at me.

I turned on the radio and pulled out of the gravel parking lot. I could see Cas in the back seat playing with Deans hair in the rear view mirror.

He still stares in awe when he thinks no one is looking. Sometimes I forget how much longer he's been waiting for this. I've had hundreds of years, he's had thousands.

After a while Cas was asleep, and I was left alone with my thoughts. Freddie had been on my mind a lot lately. His music is still in my life, but I miss him, I miss my friend more than anything.

Dean and Cas make me realize I made the right choice. Walking away from him, from her, it wasn't easy. I don't know if I can ever tell either of them, which makes me a hypocrite for being upset about Ben.

I should've told him the first time the memories came back. About what happened, I should've told him. It's too late now. We've been married years at this point. It's too late.

I don't know why the memories have been flooding back lately. Maybe that's why I wanted to run. Maybe it's why I feel like I can't breathe anymore.

Both Dean and Cas are still out cold, and it's morning in London already. If I talk to her, maybe it will help.

I saw a spot to pull over so I did. Careful not to wake Dean or Cas I climbed out of the car to call Mary. Hopefully the number is still right.

I held my breath as it rang. Terrified of who would answer. If she'd even want to hear my voice.

"Hello? May I ask who's calling?" Hear voice rang out. It's older but it's her. My beautiful Mary.

"Mary, it's me, slo- Claudia, it's Claudia, I don't know if you-" she cut me off before I could finish.

"God I've missed you Claudia. I haven't seen you since, since the funeral. Are you okay? Where are you?" She rattled off barely breathing between words.

"I'm in the states. I'm currently somewhere near Las Vegas. Mary I have so much to tell you." I said taking a deep breathe.

"I'm married. To someone like me. It's a long story. I have two husbands now actually." I hope telling her won't upset her.