All unexpected things are meant to have an unexpected twist of events. Him getting mad at me was a complete disappointing thing because he was the greenest flag for me and I remember him saying that "I'm gonna always be there for you, see me as your fatherly figure too, I just wanna be there for you.." those were the words he used to say to me and even though all of this which happened I actually still loved him but there was just a little backing off from me and yeah we fought after that a lot he told me he would leave her I said okay but he said he needed time to leave her I was still okay with it but eventually it started suffocating me I mean how could it not I couldn't be free with him there was already an fear of getting caught by our parents because my mom didn't knew about that but that was still okay we could be ourselves out wherever we wanted to but now there was this fear that what if his other "girlfriend" finds out about us or somebody who knows her sees us and tell her and come on I didn't wanted to live like that with the love of my life he was mine and why should I be afraid to be with him in public eventually we started fighting again and it was more than 3 months with it until one day Josh and I stopped talking but his other girlfriend was troubling me and I was sick of it so I told her the truth but I told her what I knew which was that she was Anas's girlfriend but she thought she was Josh's girlfriend but the thing was that wasn't only the truth I knew she told me that Josh was the one who also told her that I was Anas's girlfriend and not his. I don't know what I was feeling maybe a betrayal from the person who used to say that "I'm gonna take care of you no matter what" but turns out that he was the hurting me the most unknowingly....
