Horns and Halos (An Ineffable Husbands mpreg fanfic) DEAD FIC

Chapter 4: Dear Lord Why!?

It had been two months since Aziraphale and Crowley officially started calling each other boyfriends and Crowley noticed that over that time Aziraphale's scent wasn't the only thing that changed in the Angel since the two of them shared that bed that first time.

One evening the two were sitting down to dinner at the Ritz and Aziraphale rejected the offer to look at their wine list and said he was fine with water which completely surprised Crowley to the point where he decided not to order wine for himself either. After this Crowley became very suspicious of Aziraphale's behavior so he started gathering evidence knowing that if he were to bring up this one instance Aziraphale would never believe him that something was off. So he watched and noticed that Aziraphale had completely stopped drinking caffeinated teas, ate a bit more carefully as if he were worried about catching human diseases, and asked Crowley for help with very simple tasks that he typically did on his own but suddenly needed Crowley's help.

Finally one evening after a lovely little date they went back to Crowley's flat and Crowley was finally going to confront Aziraphale about this odd behavior but as they reached Crowley's door as he unlocked the door Aziraphale turned to the door across the hall as music blaring incredibly loud but it caught his attention because it was the song that Gabriel and Beelzebub fell in love too. Aziraphale walked over to the door and opened it just a crack. "Angel wait!" Said Crowley as he abandoned his keys in the door to run over to see Gabriel and Beelzebub holding each other and swaying to the song. Crowley quickly shuts the door and Aziraphale is at a loss for words at the sight Crowley was obviously hiding from him. "Come on." Said Crowley as he took Aziraphale by the arm and dragged him into his flat.
"What are they doing here?!" Aziraphale demanded in a frightened tone.
"I've sort of been hiding them." Crowley admitted as he sighed.
"Why?!" Demanded Aziraphale as Crowley lashed out at him as was his typical go to when Aziraphale had upset him.
"Well Angel there are a lot of things that we could ask why to! Like how you have been acting like a completely different person since we fucked!" Shouted Crowley as the word 'fucked' echoed off the walls which made Aziraphale very nervous.
"I have not and don't shout that they could hear you!" Said Aziraphale in a soft yet panicked tone. "Don't try and change the subject, you're the one hiding Gabriel and Beelzebub!" Said Aziraphale as Crowley wouldn't give up on trying to change the subject because he still wasn't even certain why he took them in when he would never have done something like that before plus most of the time he spent without Aziraphale, he spent in a depressed drunken haze so some things were hard to recall and he didn't want to even dare tell Aziraphale just how much being without him really hurt.
"Oh come off it Angel! You still haven't told me the real reason you abandoned Heaven! At least they are honest with me as to why they came to me!" Said Crowley as Aziraphale was visibly upset by the remark.
"I would never lie to you!" Said Aziraphale as he teared up.
"Yeah well you certainly did!" Said Crowley as Aziraphale shook his head.
"No! I was as honest with you as I could be!" Said Aziraphale as Crowley started pressing him for more information.
"What does that mean?!"
"No forget I said it!"
"Angel what does it mean! Why can't you tell me your reason for coming back because it definitely wasn't me!" Shouted Crowley as Aziraphale finally broke.
"IT WAS YOU! I found out what she did to you..." Said Aziraphale as Corey dropped his aggressive facade and the walls he had built around himself finally crumbled. His confidence, his strength, his aloof outward shell completely turned to dust to reveal the true real pain that was Crowley.
"No... No, no, no." He sobbed as he backed away and hit the wall then slid to the floor.
"Crowley..." Said Aziraphale as he walked over and sat next to him. "Crowley please don't do this." Aziraphale begged but he had no idea how important that information was to Crowley and how hard he had tried for the last 6 thousand years to keep it from Aziraphale.
"The one thing..." Crowley muttered as he buried his face in his knees.
"What?" Asked Aziraphale as he gently placed his hand on Crowley's shoulder.
"I tried so hard and all for nothing!" Said Crowley as he just seemed to be receding further inside.
"No Crowley listen to me!" Aziraphale begged as it seemed like Crowley didn't hear him but he was still going to try. "I was blinded by my faith in God but when I saw the records they had on you in Heaven, I saw how God treated you! It was completely unjust and cruel! I never understood how you fell and now I do. I feel completely ashamed for not going with you when I had the chance! The moment I watched that record, I cried for you and your pain!" Said Aziraphale as he squeezed Crowley's shoulder. "I know now, why you would never take my forgiveness but now I beg for yours. Please, my love, forgive me for my betrayal." Aziraphale begged as Crowley finally looked up.
"Angel... If you know what happened to me then I know I could never forgive you." Said Crowley as Aziraphale hung his head. "Because you've done nothing wrong, just like I did." Said Crowley as Aziraphale looked up and Crowley hugged him. "Just promise me that we never speak of what I've been through, alright?" Asked Crowley as Aziraphale held him close.
"Of course."

Though Crowley and Aziraphale were never going to speak of the events that transpired in Crowley's past, it is still necessary to play out the events for those who wish to know.

It was just before the fall and Crowley as an Angel was wandering the halls of heaven just thinking when he was met by a famous face. "Hello." Said the golden haired angel Lucifer, God's favorite Angel.
"Wow hello!" Said Crowley as Lucifer put his arm around Crowley's shoulders.
"So I hear you've been asking a lot of questions lately, correct?" Asked Lucifer as he walked with Crowley.
"Well a little bit though there's no harm done." Said Crowley as Lucifer put his hand on Crowley's chest.
"No, no, of course not! But I do think you should meet some of my friends!" Said Lucifer as Crowley followed him as far as he could but when he realized his mistake it was already too late he was already on the wrong side of this Holy War.

When the punishment was being laid out Crowley was brought to his knees before God. Crowley begged and pleaded with his Lord praying for forgiveness even though he didn't feel he had done anything wrong. If this was where asking questions was going to get him he'd just rather things to go back to the way they were but it was far too late for that. God told Crowley that he was no longer worthy of her forgiveness let alone a place in her palace. "You are nothing more than demonic scum to me now." Said God as she used her Godly might to tear Crowley's angelic wings off of his body. She also tore out his halo and shattered it. Tears fell from Crowley's eyes as his halo flickered and cracked until it became dim and died out. Finally as a punishment for Crowley trying to deceive God she burned out his eyes and cast him to Hell.

When Crowley landed in Hell he curled up on the cold dark ground and sobbed until he was scooped up and held by the hands of the newly reformed Satan. "Come now, no tears this was a good thing!" Said Satan as Crowley still shook in fear of God. "Now that our God has forsaken us, we must start a new." Said Satan as he gently brushed his finger across Crowley's back and gave him new black wings. Finally Crowley opened his eyes able to see. "Welcome home, Crawley."