best friends with benefits

Chapter 20

[ Niki POV ]

"Yuri?" I whisper to myself as my grip loses from sunghoon's collar.

She came towards us and stand in front of me.

"Look it's not like what you think-" I tried to explain myself, but she cut me off by slapping me hard. It’s the first time someone ever slapped me and it's none other than my best friend, my only love.

"You! How can you do this to Sunghoon! didn't I told you that I LOVE HIM! WHY NOT YOU JUST STAY AWAY FROM US!? HUH!? AND YOU KNOW AFTER THIS YOU ARE MAKING ME HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU NIKI! “she yelled right in my face. I was still looking down. I know it's not my fault and I know she doesn't know the truth, but I don't know why I still can't say it to her.

I can't...

I'm afraid it'll break her in so many pieces.

She held sunghoon's hand and was about to go when I held her wrist. She turns towards me I can see the anger showing in her eyes.

"Yuri, let me explain...please..." I said, looking into her eyes, hoping she will give me a chance to explain.

I have to explain it to her.

"Let go," she said in a stern tone. "huh? No, please Yuri-" she cut me off. "I. SAID. LET. GO!" she yelled again and yanked her hand out of my grip and walked away with sunghoon.

I was yelling her name, but she ignored me.

I was angry, so angry. Angry at myself that I can't tell her the truth, that now she doesn't trust me, that now she hates me! I wanna go, go and hug her and explain her everything but I think it's too late.

She trusts Sunghoon more than me and it.....

It hurts like hell.

I was walking in the hallway looking down when suddenly some girls push her friends towards me.

I glared at her.

What she wants?

"Niki" she called my name, acting all shy. I ignored her and was about to walk away when she held my hand. I glare at her hand that is holding mine.

"Niki, wait-" she said, then I look at her face. I didn't say anything. Don't she understand that I want to be alone? Why she is bothering me?

She hold a red rose in front me and said "Actually I wanna say that...you know I really like you, I started liking you since i first saw you, I fell in love with you at first side, I always want to confess to you but I can't get that courage, you know you are really handsome and you always make my heart flu-" I'm done with her. I took the rose from her and throw it on the group, smashing it with my feet.

"fuck off," I said and walked away. I heard the girl crying.

Like I care?

I walked to the rooftop. No one will bother me there.

I was sitting and thinking about the incident that happened.

I LOVE HIM! WHY NOT YOU JUST STAY AWAY FROM US!? HUH!? AND YOU KNOW AFTER THIS YOU ARE MAKING ME HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU NIKI!

I HATE YOU!

these 3 words keep playing in my head like a broken tap.

I didn't realise that I was crying. I was crying so hard.

I held my face in my hands.

"Why? Why!? WHY!?" I said while slamming my feet on my ground. "WHY CAN’T SHE JUST LOVE ME! WHAT I DID!? why?" I said, still crying.

She wants this, right? She wants me to stay away from her, right? Then ok from now on I'll stay away from her. It's hurt seeing her with someone else who doesn't even deserve her. I don't want to get hurt again and again. If she wants then I'll grant her wish. Now I'll ignore her, I think it's for the better.

I wiped my tears and close my eyes, taking a deep breath.

"Oh Niki! You are here! I was looking for you-" jungwon came, he stopped when he looked at me. "Wait- were you crying?" He said, confused, sitting beside me. "what happen-" he was about to ask but I hugged him.

Jungwon is my only true friend beside Yuri. He knows how much I love her and he knows about Sunghoon too. I always tell him everything.

"She hates me now jungwon, she hate me," I said while crying again. "Clam down first Niki, calm down," he said softly while rubbing my back. I tighten my grip, hugging him tightly while crying my heart out.

"How can I calm down? Its hurts... its hurts so bad," I said while sobbing hard. "i..i.." I tried to say something but because of crying its won't come out of my mouth.

"Shh... don't talk, first try to calm down then we will talk about it okay?" Jungwon softly said while rubbing my back and crassing my hairs.

I nodded my head and just cried, cried and cried till I calm down. Jungwon sat there with me, hugging me and reassuring me that it'll be alright.

When I calm down, I let go of the hug and wiped my face.

"Sorry to bother you" I said to jungwon while looking down. "Hey! We are friends and you know I'm always here with you in your hard times," he said, wrapping his arm around my shoulders. I nodded my head while looking at him.

"wanna talk about what happened?" He asked. I nodded my head. I need his help.

"So...." then I explain everything to him, that how I beat Sunghoon and how Yuri came and misunderstood me. All the things that happened.

I tried to not cry when I told him everything.

"Oh..I see....so what you gonna do now?" He asked while looking at me. I looked down, playing with my fingers.

"I decided to ignore her from now on, I can't do it, actually I can't handle it anymore, if she want to be with him then it's ok, it's her life I'll not disturb her anymore" I said to jungwon looking up at him.

He pressed his lips together while nodding his head.

"You are right, you know sometimes it's better to let go and if you really love her, then you should let her go, if she meant to with you then in the end she will come back to you no matter what," he said while holding my shoulder squeezing lightly.

I bite my lower lip while nodding, agreeing with what he said.

He is right. If she meant to be with me, then she will come back to me.