The Rozovsky Heirs 13: Aletheia Hartmere Rozovsky (The Princess' Downfall)

Chapter Nine

Chapter Nine

Busy

It was so boring without Elias. I already felt bored when it started just yesterday that I didn't get to see him at the university anymore. Palagi kasi kaming magkasama. Kaya naman ngayong araw ay sina Gerald at Emma lang ang kasama ko.

Pero hindi rin naman ako pwedeng sumama na lang din sa kanila palagi. I already looked like a third wheel. At ayaw ko rin talaga na istorbohin silang dalawa.

And during the first few days of Elias' absence, palagi pa siyang nakakatawag sa akin. And we would do video calls. Kahit nga may class ako, I still chat him and send him messages in secret from the professors that I was only using my phone in their classes.

Kinukumusta ko lang naman palagi si Elias. Because I also worry for him. Lalo na ngayong malayo kami sa isa't isa. At hindi ko nakikita ang ginagawa niya roon. Although he said that he's just helping with the family members noong namatayan...

At close friend din pala ng mom and dad niya iyong person who passed away...

Maybe both their common friend. That's why they went home to attend it's wake and funeral...

I may have not experienced such grief before... But I'm aware that it could be painful, too. Just imagining losing someone dear to you like a close friend, ay parang nanghihina na rin ako...

But the next days Elias became busy in the Philippines. He couldn't reply that much to my messages, and we couldn't video call properly, too. So I got worried. And I felt anxious.

Pagkatapos isang beses ay ibang tao pa ang sumagot ng phone niya sa tawag ko sa kaniya. I couldn't believe that he would just leave his personal phone to someone else. And worst was the person who answered my video call was a girl!

Kitang-kita ko iyon sa video call. It was a pretty woman who I think was just the same age of us.

Agad akong nakaramdam ng galit at inis. At kahit pa tinawag lang din naman agad noong babae si Elias pagkatapos sagutin ang tawag ko at si Elias na ang kaharap ko, I still felt irritated.

"Aletheia, I'm sorry I was busy here. My parents were introducing me to their friends. I didn't notice I left my phone. What's up?"

What's up?! Iyan lang ba ang sasabihin niya sa akin? Wouldn't he supposed to explain to me right away of what just happened? As to I wouldn't overthink? Tsk.

"Who was that?" It was as if I didn't care anymore about what he's telling me about his parent's friends, dahil mas nag-focus na lang ako sa babaeng nakita ko kanina na may hawak ng phone niya. "Who was that girl, Elias?" ulit ko pa.

"Oh, that? That was Melanie, the daughter of one of my Mom's friends. Why? Siya ang nagbalik sa akin nitong phone ko." He said.

"Bakit kayo magkasama?"

Nagtagal ang tingin niya sa screen ng phone niya sa akin. "We're still here sa burol ng best friend ng parents ko, Aletheia. At nandito rin sila ni Melanie..."

Melanie. Tsk.

At kahit naiinis ako, I still let it pass.

But then the next time ay magkasama pa rin sila. I saw a photo posted that was tagged to Elias' Facebook. Hindi siya masyadong gumagamit ng Facebook niya so we don't also post anything on social media when we're together. At kukulitin din ako ng mga kapatid ko tungkol kay Elias once they found out about him at aabot pa 'yan kay Daddy. Kaya naman hindi na rin ako nag-p-post. So I got a little jealous when another girl got to post on their social media with Elias there beside her. And guess what? It's Melanie again.

'Tapos nakita ko pa ang comments ng mga tao na hindi ko rin kilala who's probably from the Philippines at mukhang nirereto pa silang dalawa ni Melanie at Elias sa isa't isa!

Hindi ba sinasabi sa kanila ni Elias na may girlfriend na siya?

I sighed heavily in frustration as well...

And then I realized that I couldn't stay so far away with the person I love...

"Hindi mo ba sinasabi d'yan na may girlfriend ka na rito sa Germany?" I asked him.

At nagkausap din kami ni Elias pagkatapos kong makita ang post.

"Why were you together? The funeral was done, right?" Kumunot ang noo ko habang kausap ko siya at pinapanood siyang mukhang handa na rin magpaliwanag sa video call.

"Yes, tapos na. But my parents met with their old friends here and had a reunion. Which sinama rin nila kami na mga anak nila. It's just that, Aletheia..." He tried to explain to me.

Wala naman akong sinabi na sa kaniya pagkatapos noon. And instead I just told him to end our call now.

And after that I grew cold to Elias...

And I doubted if I really knew him, because what if nambababae na pala siya roon sa Pilipinas habang wala ako at nandito sa Germany?

I became doubtful of him and our relationship...

I didn't message him anymore. And I also didn't initiate our calls after that. At hindi ko na rin sinasagot ang mga tawag niya.

I decided to just wait for him until he's back here in Germany, at doon na lang kami mag-uusap ulit.

But then I waited. Hanggang sa nagtagal na ang paghihintay ko. I checked the calendar at sumobra na yata sina Elias sa paalam niya sa akin na dalawa hanggang tatlong linggo lang siya na mawawala...

Pagkatapos pa when I checked our calls and messages, I realized that it's been days since his last message to me was sent. And he never called me again... Kahit pa sinubukan ko na rin siyang i-message at tawagan... Wala na... Hindi na niya sinasagot ang mga tawag ko.

I also talked to his cousin, Gerald. But Gerald doesn't know a thing about what's happening in the Philippines. Hindi rin daw siya close sa parents ni Elias. And Elias doesn't reply to him, too.

And I felt like I was going crazy...

At ilang araw pa ang lumipas na ganoon pa rin...

Until I already started crying every night when I go to bed. At nakakatulog na lang ako sa pag-iyak gabi-gabi. I was so emotional...

At iyon pala ay may dahilan din why I was so moody and easily irritated... Why I was being too emotional these days...

At saka ko pa lang nalaman ang isang bagay habang hindi maayos ang pakiramdam ko and I couldn't anymore contact Elias as well...

And then I pitifully concluded that maybe he already lost interest in me after he met someone else there... And baka hindi na rin sila bumalik pa ng family niya rito sa Germany...

At that time I couldn't think straight or properly...

I was even self-pitying.

I couldn't eat well. I cannot sleep properly at night because of my anxiousness...

And I was feeling alone... Until I felt like Elias had left me all alone.

He abandoned me and our child that I was already carrying in my womb...