Borderline(Aot x modern reader)

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Y/n pov

I stood there thinking of what happened Bert and ANNIE? Oh my god, Mom was right I'm a slut. I rubbed my face trying to calm down my blushed face. Then heard a knock from my door.

"Y/n it's Jean we are going to burn the bodies soon if you want to say your goodbye...". Jean said he sounded sad and upset.

I felt myself froze I felt overwhelmed with guilt. I opened the door and faced Jean. He looked as if he was about to cry.

"Jean". I said in a shaky voice. I took a deep breath and walked over to him and hugged him. He embraced himself into my touch he held me close.

"I can't believe Sam is dead I know he was a highly skilled soldier he just slacked off he would have gotten a top rank just Sam". Jean choked out. I clutched onto my harder.

"Yeah yeah I know it is I have known Sam for years he was my brother...". I said weakly and filled with guilt. Sam, how did you get killed? What happened after I passed out? Jean pulled away and looked at me.

"And oh my god y/n what happened to you...". He murmured and pulled back and he made eye contact with me holding onto my shoulders and scanned my body up and down.

"I want you to quit the scouts...". Jean asks me weakly. I cupped his face with my available arm and shook my head no.

"Jean why would you ask me that I never want to quit the scouts they are my life my passion I want to see that out walls I want to live life and mostly importantly make sure all my friends family and the people I love are safe". I said while flashes of memories and flashbacks filled my mind.

Jean placed his hand on top of mine which was cupping his cheek. He brought my hand to his forehead. He let out a breath of air.

"I know I don't know why I asked but I just want you to be safe that's why I'm joining the scouts for you and keeping my promise...". Jeans said he mumbled the last part of it so I didn't catch what he said. He brought my hand to his mouth and left a quick kiss on my hand.

"I promise to always protect you because you protect so many others that you forget to protect yourself let me be your shield and sword princess allow me to lay my life down for you my princess". Jean said in a determined yet soft tone. He made my mind go blank into putty. I felt my face grow red.

"I-I-". Before I continued being a stuttering mess. Jean spoke out.

"I will for you no matter what y/n let us join the scouts together I want no need to protect you my soul heart and body". Jean told me and brought me in for another hug.

"Y/n I-". Jean was about to say something but then someone knocked on the door.

"Hey y/n it's Connie and Sasha we want to make sure you're okay we're about to burn the bodies...have you seen Jean? he hasn't come out of his since he found out Sam is dead...". Connie said sadly.

"We also haven't seen much of you either y/n I heard rumors of your leg being broken and having no arm... but that ridiculous badass y/n could never... at least not the y/n I know I also miss sitting with you at lunch I miss you sharing your food but I mostly just miss you..". Sasha said they both sounded like they were on the verge of crying.

As if their throat was going to clasp from the inside out. This made my heart melt and made me feel a wave of guilt come over me. I looked at Jean and rubbed his arm. I whispered into his ear.