Borderline(Aot x modern reader)

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Y/n

"Annie, you know who I am, did I do something wrong... Annie, please". I begged of her, I reached out for her hand, but she jolted back from me, her expression filled with disgust.

"Who are you and what do you know about everything"? Annie questioned and looked at me like I was her enemy

"Annie, you know who I am and know because of Armin, he told me that you were the female Titan that all I know". I told her, and her expression became more hateful.

"Bullshit Sam told me stuff before he died and your little crew out there do you think I'm stupid? There the same god damn crew had a different titan viartient that shouldnt exist! You there fucking leader so theres something you know or you ARE JUST REFUSING TO TELL ME"! Annie yelled at me

I took a deep, shaky breath as I just stared at her, not knowing what to say..

"Annie your right I didn't tell you so let me clear my name is Y/n l/n and I am the leader of the outlaw group from the under ground and I am a sceintcess who created the new titan varient however I will not tell you the identity of the moth titan because they asked to remain hidden I will tell you you this Annie... I'm sorry for hurting you, I never meant to do it, the furthest thing I have ever wanted... and there are probably dozens of questions you want to ask, and I don't know if I can answer them all". I told her, choking on my words as it started to get harder to speak.

Annie's expression changed; she looked conflicted and mad, but behind those eyes was a sympathetic look.

I wanted her to hold me, I wanted to hold her and make sure everything was okay, but I know everything would not be okay after this, everything will change, everything will be the way everyone looked at me, how everyone will feel.

Armin, my parents, Eren, Jean, Mikasaka, Connie, Hanje, Erwin, what will they all say about what will happen them our relationship? Will they still look at me the same? I started to cry, I felt like I couldn't breathe. Unable to cope and handle this Wave of sudden emotions.

"Annie.. what am I supposed to do? I don't want you to abandon me". I admitted through tears, unable to control that pain that I kept for so long, I didn't want her to leave.

I never wanted to, I just wanted to save her from being trapped in the crystal for so many years because.. I couldn't bear it not talking to her everyday seeing her smile listening to her laugh when I do something idotic or braid her hair in the moring her beating my ass in training.

I want to be selfish with her, I want her to stay here by my side, I know that's selfish, but I don't care. There was this unbearable silence. I looked at her. She was crying. I reached out to her, but she slapped my hand.

"Do you honestly believe that I want to leave to abandon you? But what am I supposed to think when you have so many secrets... I thought I knew you. I trusted you with something so vulnerable and intimate. What am I supposed to think, how am I supposed to feel when the girl I kissed is a stranger to me... making me question everything, do I even mean anything to you"? Annie asked me.

"Annie you meant everything to me and you do know me and I know you to an extent to I told her". I told her but she nodded no.

"But you don't know you don't know anything you don't know anything so how could you truly actually genuinely know me"? Annie asked in a passive tone.

"I know enough which means whatever you were not tellign whatever you were hiding is something is just something more to care about three thing will alway some out the sun the moon and thruth which means whatever I have done the scearts and the blood on my hands will come to light eventually and the sam goes for you and you willing to accept everything about me because I have already made my choice since the begging I will always stick by your side Annie... I made you a promise I'm sticking by it no matter what. Will you do the same for me even though I'm hiding secrets from you that there will be something that is not explainable? Will you be okay with that"? I asked her to hold out my hand to her.