Spiralling (Johnnie Guilbert x Jake Webber)

Sleep well?

Jake-
Jesus.. what time is it..?
Uhh oh it's only like 10 o'clock? Huh what time did I get home last night? How did I get home last night? Johnnie can't drive.. was it Tara? I didn't get an Uber.. I don't have any money, it must've been Tara. Wait.. Tara! Oh no I f*cked up.. who kisses someone other then their girlfriend at their girlfriends party!? But Taras forgiving right? And she'd know it's a joke.. and Johnnie, Johnnie probably feels like shit now.. I gotta make it upto both of them, I hope they aren't at each others throats. They must've both taken pretty good care of me, I'm not even that hungover, I have all my things that I took to the party, and I'm home safe. Johnnies definitely not up yet.. maybe I can make him some breakfast, I don't know what we have but there bound to be something..

Jake lifts himself off the couch and sees the bucket that was beside his head as he slept, he was surprised to find it was empty and he knew that the stain on his shirt happened a good couple of hours before he came home. He was a victim of an amateur drinker, that couldn't manage to turn away before throwing up down jakes front.

He quickly goes into his bedroom to find a new shirt to wear as the smell of puke and cigarettes reeked on his clothing.

He continued on into the kitchen to find a suitable breakfast for Johnnie but all he managed to find was three month expired ramen, a few craft Mac and cheeses and three mini frozen corndogs. He reached for the Mac and cheese without a second thought and began preparing it in silence. As he's preparing the food he begins to think more about the night before, and pieces together a few odd moments.

Jake-
This is so f*cking stupid, what the hell happened before we left? The last thing I remember was right after I kissed Johnnie and that drunk guy puked all over me.. who was he anyway? I don't even know what he looks like anymore.. and I remember when we came through the door, It felt like I was being dragged.. then a second later I was just on the couch holding Johnnies hand. ... holy f*cking sh*t. I was holding Johnnies hand.. what happened after that? I remember the way he looked at me though, it was soothing.. and he knelt down to me after that he said something I think? I wasn't listening, he probably told me I was stupid or something..
Oh f*ck I hope he doesn't think I'm gay, that'd make it really awkward, I'm not gay. I've dated plenty of girls before, and he definitely isn't gay, there's no way, I know he's dated girls before there was one a while ago.. I think.
Who the hell goes and kisses they're friend anyway?

Jake continued to think to himself about the night before, forgetting about the small bowl of Mac and cheese he put in the microwave. His attempt was to stop the microwave at 1 to stop it from making an irritating beep while Johnnie was still sleeping, but of course it slipped his mind and startled him from his thoughts and he rushed to get the food from the other side of the kitchen, he waited a moment to see if Johnnie had been woken up but he sighed in relief when there wasn't any stirring.

After dishing up the food and getting a large glass of water for his friend he headed to johnnies room, praying

Jake-
Please don't be naked. Please don't be naked. Please don't be naked...
Oh thank god

As Jake cracked the door open he peered in to see that Johnnie was almost fully clothed.
The only thing missing was his shirt, which to Jake wasn't surprising due to the space heater in Johnnies bedroom, before waking up Johnnie to give him his breakfast Jake spotted something small.
It was a tattoo that he had given Johnnie some time ago, it was a small red star with a dark outlining. He'd always joked and teased Johnnie about how it was the longest time they'd ever touched, but he didn't always think of it in a funny way. It was sentimental to both Jake and Johnnie, but neither knew the others importance. Jake saw it as a sign of trust, and Johnnie always thought of it as a piece of his dear friend that could always be with him.

Jake looked up from the tattoo and turned away from his thoughts to see how peacefully Johnnie was resting and his heart skipped a beat. He paid no mind to it and gently woke up Johnnie.

"Hey Johnnie, I made you some breakfast, it's just a bowl of Mac and some juice. You gotta wake up it's time to eat."
Johnnie began to groan himself awake before sitting upright, he was kind of stunned.
"Oh um thanks? What the f*ck is all this for? Did you do something bad?"
Jake was confused before replying.
"Jesus calm down I only wanted to make you some f*cking breakfast.. I know you carried me in and put me on the couch last night and took good care of me so I thought I'd pay you back with your favourite,"
Johnnies heart was racing but he tried to play it cool before blowing his cover.
"Oh I didn't think you were awake, and I definitely didn't think you'd remember anything, you were pretty out. And you had puke all over you.."
Jake explained the situation of his shirt before moving on to an unknowingly bad question,
"Oh by the way Johnnie last night I remember you put me on the couch I tried to talk to you and then you knelt down and said something, do you remember what we said? I'm trying to piece together the train wreck of last night before I tell Tara I'm sorry."
"Oh you were just speaking f*cking gibberish so I just knelt down and said you were being stupid.."
Jake was surprised that he was right but at the same time he knew after being friends for so long that Johnnie was lying, or at least not telling the full truth. Through hi minor discomfort he sat down in a chair that sat in the corner of Johnnies bedroom, and pulled it closer to his bed to continue talking. As he sat down he noticed that Johnnies body was kind of enjoyable in a way that Jake couldn't really describe, he'd seen Johnnie shirtless plenty of time but something kind of turned a gear in him, it triggered a thought he'd never had before. And that triggered a sentence that he'd much rather left unsaid...

"Wow, you have a great body."

~Authors note~
Hi!! I hope you've enjoyed reading so far, this was quite a big part for me compared to the others, I wanted to point out that at this point neither thinks the other is gay, Jake currently thinks he's straight and Johnnie has been debating his feelings a small time before the kiss but is constantly ignoring the thought. 
I also want to mention that these will not be published on a schedule and I will post them whenever I actually get time, I am in the process of moving right now. I also understand there may be a few time differences (for example the tattoo might've happened after the kiss irl) but in this scenario all the videos that have been posted by the two now have happened before the kiss, meaning I might make references to create more plot :)
Speaking of plot I also would like to mention that this story probably won't contain nsfw mostly bc I'm not a huge fan of that but at the same time sexual themes may be heavily implied further on in the story. The pace of this story hasn't really been pin pointed yet and it's coming a surprise to me just as much as the readers. So any way thanks for reading so far ❤️