Spiralling (Johnnie Guilbert x Jake Webber)

No homo?

Jake-
I f*cked up. Who the hell in their right mind says something like that? Literally hours after kissing him, as a joke. He's totally gonna think I'm gay, he'd probably kick me out!...

Johnnie-
He's gay. He's totally gay. Is he? I mean it can't be true.. the only thing he ever talks about is b*obs. I mean he could be bi?...

The two were sitting in utter silence for nearly a minute without noticing each other's matching blank expressions. The two boys eyes were lit with panic, both racing through thousands of thoughts of the other. all though the two often joked about this sort of relationship that internet rumours had made, something felt much more sincere in the way Jake stated his thoughts. Johnnie often repressed all feelings he had when it came to infatuation to men, but now he couldn't help but wonder if the small feeling in the back of his head would become any sort of reality. He had known for a long time that he would never be considered a very 'masculine' person, but never confined his possible sexuality to anybody, and never even thought about it when he was alone. He was in a constant state of fear and panic whenever he was close to uncovering who he really preferred to be with.

Jake quickly realised he had to break the silence and blurted out something he had never even thought of.
"No homo? Right bro?" He said it in his strangely enthusiastic voice that he used in videos when he referred to things like "slapping food on a bitches ass" and other vulgar activities that people often found funny.

Johnnies thinking stopped dead in it's tracks when he heard it. It was weird, he'd never heard Jake say that. His thoughts were repressed once again and he just hesitantly laughed at the strange clarification. He knew it wasn't normal to think the way he was, but he'd silently hoped for a new chapter in the relationship between them. A chapter that began with the recognition of their sexualities..

"Uh hey thanks for the breakfast.. it's pretty good, um do you want to do something today?" The only thing Johnnie wanted right now was to remove his roommate and himself from this awkward situation.

"Yeah sure, what'd you have in mind?" Jake thought he'd played it off, and desperately needed to take his mind off things. Although he couldn't really get the thoughts out of his head, he tried his hardest to make sure Johnnie forgot about what he'd said.

The pair decided to go shopping at a local mall to pick up a few things they needed for home, neither of them felt the need to make a video and instead wandered in silence through the stores, once the two got home it was only early evening, around 6 pm or so, they hadn't noticed how long they were out for. They were both exhausted from running errands and partying the night before. The two both got themselves ready for an earlier night then intended, after both eating dinner in solitude, and finished all of their last minute necessities before finally turning for the night.

Jake-
I think I should talk to Tara, I think we need to break this off..

~Authors note~
Sorry this part sucks nard lol I have zero motivation right now and the next few parts should really make up for it, I just wasn't in the mood for writing today and couldn't really think of many things to put down. Also I binged another jahnnie fanfic called 'every single night' and I've tried to take some heavy literary inspiration. It might not work out though, I also enjoy the idea of Tara being supportive and respectful of a relationship between Jake and someone else ( I tried to show that in the first episode a little but it wasn't super obvious) I only really got around to reading a few episodes by the time I half finished part 2 and I'd heavily recommend it, also it doesn't have heaps of sexual scene which I personally think is nice to have the storyline as the main focus ( but honestly you do you I couldn't care less)
Anyway sorry for the crappy chapter