I thought I was doing good
I thought I was moving on
But I just couldn't resist
Listening to our song
Now my eyes are filling with tears
As I sit and stare at your face in my phone
Fighting the urge to sob
You're forever gone
I've been resisting
The temptation to hear your voice
I have that video where you say "I love you"
I just had to watch it
I just didn't have a choice
Now I'm sobbing
Great
I'm a crying mess
Just another mistake
I effortlessly made
Hayden I fucking miss you
Please tell me how to fix this
Please tell me you're coming back
I would do anything to taste your kiss
Take me back to last month
Where we walked at the park
You held my hand for the first time
I stayed well past dark
Take me back to our first hug
Where I held onto you so tightly
I knew that falling in love with you
Was entirely likely
Take me back to our first night we shared
We stayed up most of the night
As our laughter filled the air
Just take me back
Take me back to our first kiss
The things I would do
The things I would commit
Please
Just take me back
I'll beg until my knees are bruised
Until my knees are scabbed
But if I have to beg for you this way
Was your love for me ever true?
I know you wouldn't have to beg for me
I would've never left you
I would do anything
Anything at all
I'm only 10 digits away
Please just pick up your phone and call
All these thoughts circling in my mind
Torturing me
Like vultures in the sky
All because I forgot
the sound of my name on your lips
I remembered the video
And I just had to hear it
Instantly triggering the ache in my chest
Looks like I'm crying myself to sleep again
I confess
I'm a sobbing mess
I'll bury my face in the pillow
To silence my pain
But I'm sure once it's over
I'll continue to feel the same
For this pain comes in waves
I keep drowning in grief
Mourning a man that's still alive
Just not with me
I got my hopes up today
I thought you were coming back
Even if you did
You broke up with me on my birthday
How could I look past that?
I hate all these mixed feelings I have
You seem like a stranger compared to him
You don't appear to be the man I loved
You're cold and distant
You left me stunned
He was kind and passionate
He would've done anything for me
He would've never left me so empty
He would've never hurt me
But he is you.
You did this
You left my heart bruised
And my soul confused
How could we possibly start anew?
I'm positive if you told me you wanted me back
I wouldn't hesitate
You wouldn't have to ask
I would do anything to get that feeling back
And I would finally be rid of this one
At last
-LS
