your dreams have become my sweet poison
they haunt me
yet i don't wanna run away
they show me a world
that doesn't exist,
yet I pray for it.
a night without that world
makes that night unworthy of existence
yet I wait for those nights;
why are you doing this to me?
why give me pleasures that are not mine?
what do I believe in?
the actuality or the universe
the truth or the naked truth
they all are consuming me now
what did you do to me that I can't runaway?
that I find solace in pain
that I want to stay near this pain
that I can't let go of this pain
that I now wish every night to be the pain
