hello god, it's me again
your favourite loser, a forever disdain.why did you make me like this
why did me so bad
everything i do or done
feels like one more big regret.i wish you made me strong enough
to let go the memories
that cripple me every night.
why made me so positive
that now their looks nothing but a dark sight.
Why?i wish you made me content enough
so I did not have to look for them
when i'm surrounded by a crowd.
why made me so merciful
that i'm slitting My wrists
to quench their thirsts.i wish you made me pragmatic enough
to accept that other are better than best.
why made me so fixated on her
that I can't see any good in the rest.i wish you made me receptive enough
to accept that life holds happiness for me
because no matter how close or far I look
I just can't see.you made me so hopeless, how do I live now?
if it's still not the end, tell me to survive how.