lilacs || Minsung

Second Chance 4 | an early morning

When Jisung came to his friend's house to celebrate his birthday, he was expecting a lot, but certainly not that he would have kissed his far too hot older brother and far too early into the evening at that. With absolutely no alcohol or any other kind of proper excuse for it even being a thing either. Other than him being a weak ass man, that is.

Now, what he did expect though was for a kiss with Lee Minho to absolutely never be able to leave his mind at all once it would actually happen outside of any dream or fantasy. Which makes things a whole lot harder again for the rest of everything because he just keeps thinking about it now. One glance at Minho's pretty and pink lips and Jisung has to hold back from licking over his own, remembering the taste of Minho too well for his own good.

Addicted. He knew the moment their lips touched for the first time that staying away from Minho would become a task with such a high level of strength and restraint required that Jisung somehow seems to not possess when he is around Lee Minho. How is he ever going to forget about this constant need inside of him, this pull towards the man, this desire to grab him by the collar of that shirt of his that looks far too good on him despite being so very simple, pull him in and kiss him again. Again and again, until their lips are all swollen and bruised, bitten and sucked on.

He keeps going back to it, is honestly grateful for a moment of peace when the daycare teacher leaves the room for a moment to put up Taeyang's travel bed in the guest room the family of two will be staying in for the night. Chan will be staying with Felix and Changbin will spend the night in Minho's room. Everything had already been settled before, when Felix had brought up the idea he had for how he wants to celebrate his twenty fifth birthday and tried to convince everyone to come.

What matters right now is to make this all absolutely perfect for Felix, especially so the next day, when it is in fact Felix's big day. Felix, whom Jisung is risking to hurt so badly if he actually ends up giving in to whatever desires he has for his friend's hot older brother and anyone found out about it. He feels horrible, selfish beyond anything, knowing that he so badly wants to just let go of whatever is holding him back to give himself to Minho, let him do things beyond anything Jisung has ever had done to him before. Their kisses gave a glimpse into a new world, just waiting to be explored by Jisung. He should not be thinking like that, he knows. But he is. And he cannot stop. It feels like kissing Minho flipped a switch, broke that last barrier, set free whatever it was he was still trying so hard to contain.

Stolen glances all throughout the evening and a quick dinner for Taeyang, who would have to go to bed first. It feels like any other time Jisung has gone somewhere for an overnight trip with his son. Almost exactly the same, but with the added pressure of pure desire for someone like he has not felt it in a long time. Or possibly ever, even. Then again though, it has probably just been a little too long since the last time anyone has shown any proper interest in Jisung, has been a while since the last time he has kissed, let alone had sex. It makes sense to be all horny when an absolutely stunning human suddenly appears, looks at him like he is the most attractive being on this planet, then kisses him like he is trying to prove it to him too.

He wonders. Honestly wonders. Whether Minho kisses everyone like that or just him. Just Jisung. Because Jisung has kissed a total of five people in his entire life, was married to one of them, yet never felt anything like what he felt like tonight. So different. Something about Minho is just so different. So good.

When Jisung takes his son to bed, grateful for the moment away from Minho and all the thoughts about him that would inevitably follow every gaze thrown in his direction, everyone else keeps busy as well. Chan is already in the spare room he and Felix use for some of their videos, is live streaming his usual Friday night episode of Channie's Room. Changbin is setting the table while taking to Minho and Felix, who are both in the kitchen, finishing up the dinner they have so conveniently decided to just eat after they have already had the chocolate cake Felix had baked for Jisung. The incredibly tasty chocolate cake Felix had baked for Jisung.