Me

purgatory

my life is so sad

i don't have any meaning

it's just pain.. more pain.. and a shit load of fucking infinite pain and i don't wanna deal with it anymore. fuck this shit bro. NOTHING is worth me having to wake up every day alive. nothing. waking up is the most painful feeling. i wake up and my first thought is .. "why?" why the fuck did i have to wake up to another day. it's my own person hell.

i won't hurt myself but i pray to god every day that he fucking brings me home to him naturally. please. i don't care how i go. i just want it to be soon. i don't want a baby to take care of when i dont value my own life. i cant support someone when i've already given up on myself . i always said i stayed alive for my mom but guess what.. she doesn't deserve it anymore. she doesn't care about how i feel so i don't give a FUCK. i will not live my life just to make sure that monster
doesn't hurt more. i don't recognize her. she isn't my mother anymore. she's a fucking shell and a fucking stranger.