Random Topics about My Opinion

Chapter 13.

So, I kinda have been feeling really sad lately. Not that sadness is a bad thing, it's just that I feel unwanted. I bet everyone has felt this way before, but for me, it feels like I've been this way for two years. I'm not happy. And I know that my NFFL reads this, but don't be concerned. I'm talking to someone about it right now.

I feel like No one likes me for me. I just get told that

- I'm fat
- my hair is too curly
- I don't wear enough makeup
- I have too many moles
- I'm not athletic enough
- I need to eat healthier
- I have split ends

There is much more, but I don't want to bore you. You know this is suppose to be a topic, so let's make the topic about being kind spirited.

The only hope I have left for happiness, are two

1. Jesus and our relationship

2. The love between an Adoptive mother and her daughter.

My Adoptive Mom is pretty awesome. She knows when something is wrong. She tries to cheer me up a lot and 99.9% of the time it works. Like today, I was helping her at our church clean. She wanted this old body length mirror thrown away, so I went to grab it. As soon as I grabbed it, it fell and shattered into pieces. I know that isn't funny, but My Mom ran and by the time she got to me she was in tears so afraid that I had hurt myself. I just stood as still as could be and asked her if she saw blood. After we found out that I was ok, we busted out laughing. It was like a I'm gonna wait til you're ok and then laugh moment.

I have a lot of people in this world that don't like me. Not because they find me as a bad person, but because I try to act like an adult. I can't help that when I was 8 I felt like I had to grow up and take care of little kids. Long story.

Just don't judge someone until you walk in there shoes. Okay.

See ya on the flip side --- Madi