🌸Poetry book🌸

Speak your truth🗣️📢

Sometimes I think I'm too quiet, but then someone tells me I'm too loud.
So I close my lips tight, don't worry, I won't make a sound.

Now you're boring, do you really have nothing to say?
Well I do, but my words would only make you walk away.

You care too much. I do, that's true.

Would you rather me not care about you?
Maybe I'd rather it, time for a change of attitude
But that wouldn't be true, and I could never do that to you

So speak your truth.
Even if it hurts other people?
Speak your truth.
Even if it makes me look evil?
Be honest.
But I'd rather be kind.
And look where that's got you.

Why don't I just be myself then?
Well that's easy.
Nope, now nobody likes me.

Did they say that?
They meant that.
Oh of course they did,
You've never been anything but a tall kid.

Why don't you tell them the truth?
They'd send me away.
To where?
To a bad place, and I'd never come back from there.

But you need to get better,
I've tried to get better.
Nobody will ever bother to save me,
Because some people just aren't worth saving.

I hate me too. But I don't think you do, I think I simply hate me through you.
I think I've let every roll of your eyes rework my mind until I'm someone new.

If you don't hate me then who does?
Who said these things to me, who?

Well,
If you hate yourself enough, it seems like everyone hates you too,
So why don't tell them?
Why don't you tell them the truth?

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I made this just before I actually broke out of my shell a bit and it's basically just me realizing my mentality is flawed.
Also
"I hate me too. But I don't think you do, I think I simply hate me through you."
Is literally my favourite line I've ever written in a poem, I don't think I've ever been able to describe thinking people hate you because you hate yourself in better words.
But I don't really identify with this poem anymore, fuck what people think.