My Mateless Mate...

7. My Gorgeous Jerk Of A Mate

Kate's POV

I could feel my whole heart crumpling in my chest as I sat on my big, fluffy, white comforter thinking of what I was going to do without a mate. I've always seen how much pain my mom not being around has caused my dad but at least he has me, a reminder of my mother, but I'll have nothing. 'This is the start to a seriously horrible life' I thought.

After about two hours of crying, and reading, and more crying, and watching TV, and crying while watching TV, I heard a knock on the front door. About a minute later my dad peaked his head through my door and said "Kate you have a visitor." He then opened the door and walked away leaving a very sexy boy behind, also known as Cole, my gorgeous jerk of a mate.

"Hey" Cole said with a voice that sounded like melted chocolate.

"What do you want?" I stated while trying to put up a tough front.

"I just want you to hear me out. I know earlier today I-"

"You what? Slept with fifteen girls in fifteen minutes? Almost knocked out a kid in class for absolutely no reason? What? What do you want me to hear out? Cole, I'm sorry that I'm not the kind of mate you wanted, I'm sorry that I'm not pretty enough for you or experienced enough for your liking but I'm tired of feeling like crap every time I'm around you when I haven't done anything wrong!"

"Kate"

"No, I'm not finished! You have barely spoken twenty words to me and I've already questioned what I'd ever done to deserve a mate as cruel as you..."

Cole's POV

And that's when I broke.

I don't cry, I've never really had a reason too but now, standing in a purple room with a girl I've just met, I felt the need to cry. I turned so my back faced Kate because I didn't want her to see me like that; I didn't want her to think I was weak. I couldn't believe she affected me so much, but words have never stung me as deep as hers just did, and in that moment I wanted to just disappear.

"I'm so sorry" I whispered more to myself than to her but when I heard the bed shift under her weight I knew she heard what I had said. "I know I was an ass and I'm not asking you to forgive me, I'm just asking you to let me make it up to you"

I then turned around and sat on the ground giving me a perfect view of the beautiful girl in front of me.

"Cole, what you did to me was just so unkind that it's hard for me to believe your being sincere. You know I want nothing more than to have a mate who cares about me but how do I know this isn't just a horrible joke you and your girlfriend set up to break my heart?" she said with a broken expression on her face that tore me apart.

"Please don't think that. I would never do that to you and I need you to understand that." I said while standing and walking closer to her. As I approached her body I could feel my heart speed up and as I reached to wipe the hair out of her face I felt sparks fly through my body. I could hear her gasp at the feel of my touch and that was enough to make me continue. I gradually slid my rough hand across her velvety cheek, down her exposed neck, past her shoulder, and along her arm until I had her hand in mine. I brought her small hand to my lips and gave it a brief, genuine kiss. I watched closely as Kate's eyes fluttered shut for a mere second, I couldn't believe the things this girl did to me.

Right then I wanted nothing more than to kiss her plump, pink lips and run my hands up and down every inch of her beautiful, tan body. I couldn't resist myself, I had to feel her mouth against mine and so I leaned in hesitantly as if to make sure I had permission and when she didn't push me away I captured her lips with mine. My lips were hungry for hers as they devoured every inch of her mouth.

Kate's POV

His lips connected with mine, creating a symphony of amazing feelings throughout my body. As much as I wanted to be mad at him his lips wouldn't allow it. They were soft, sensual, and animalistic; I had never felt anything like it before and that's just his kiss, I could only imagine how talented he must be in bed. That thought alone was enough to create a pool of warmth between my legs and cause my wolf to purr in ecstasy.

I heard Cole let out a growl "Kate, your arousal is driving me insane! Please try not to get so turned on" he said the last part with a smirk, knowing that he was the reason I was so turned on.

"I'm sorry" I moaned while looking right into his piercing green eyes "we can stop if you want"

"No, no, no, I'm fine with you getting turned on, actually I prefer it, just please don't make me stop" he smiled and I kissed him again as he wrapped his arms around my waist. 'Gosh, this boy knows exactly how to make a girl feel good! No wonder so many girls love messing around with him' I thought to myself with a smirk until it hit me.... 'He has messed around with so many girls. Girls obviously other than me, girls who are probably so much more experienced than me, hotter than me, better than me. What am I doing?' I continued to ask myself 'he doesn't want a girl like me, he's made that clear but especially a girl like me who has never even had sex before. I'm just going to embarrass myself if I ever do anything like that with him. He will probably take one look at my bare body and laugh at my unattractive appearance and naïve behavior; I just can't bear that kind of humiliation' and with that thought I stopped. Cole tried to kiss me again but I pulled back, trying to avoid his gaze.

"What's wrong?" he asked

"Nothing, everything is fine I was just thinking maybe you should go back to your girlfriend, she's probably missing you by now"