Captivated Hearts

He Capture While She Writes 5

"Flade." Tumingin ako kay Dawn ng tawagin ako. Nandito ako sa office ng writing club inaayos ang mga pictures ng pumasok si Dawn at mukhang may problema.

"Si Bonita." Pagka-banggit niya sa pangalan na iyon ay tumayo ako.

"Ano?" Naabutan kong hawak-hawak ni Kristel sa buhok si Bonita habang nakaluhod ito.

"Playing victim ka?" Galit na sabi ni Kristel. Lalapit sana ako kaso humarang si Clyde.

"Huwag kang humarang." Inis na sabi ko at tinulak siya.

"Bitawan mo siya." Utos ko kay Kristel ng maka-lapit ako.

"Bakit? She deserves this, dapat malaman ng lahat kung anong klaseng tao ang pa-famous na writer na ito. My brother loved you pero anong ginawa mo? Hindi ka manlang humingi ng tawad sa amin. Ang kapal rin ng mukha mo na putulin ang friendship natin. I treated you as my sister pero anong binalik mo? Ginamit mo lang ang kasikatan ni kuya. You toom advantage of us." Galit at naiiyak na sabi ni Kristel. Bonita was just silent. Bakit hindi niya depensahan ang sarili niya? Parang pinapakita lang niya na tama ang mga sinasabi nila. Naiinis na naman ako.

"Let go of her." Sabi ko at tinanggal ang kamay ni Kristel sa buhok ni Bonita at tinulak ito.

"Baka ikaw ang playing victim dito? I can see how insecure you are. Ginamit ang kuya mo dahil sikat siya? Kung ano man ang naabot ni Bonita ay dahil iyon sa pagsisikap niya. So stop blaming her. Diba aksidente ang nangyari sa kuya mo? Bakit si Bonita ba ang bumangga sa kaniya? Bakit ba siya lagi niyong inaatake? Grow up." Inis na sabi ko at pinantayan si Bonita. Inayos ko ang buhok niya at hinawakan ko siya sa kamay.

"Let's go." Sabi ko at inalalayan siya. Dinala ko siya sa office since walang tao.

"Ballpen at papel." Sabi niya kaya binigay ko. I let her express herself in writing.

"Here." Sabi niya at inabot sa akin ang papel.

"Punitin mo na." Sabi ko pero umiling siya.

"Read it." Sabi niya. I look at her and she smile a little then nod.

I thought everything is fine already but it's not. I got confronted again and I can't defend myself. I have this fear inside me that's why I couldn't speak, I feel like traumatized. I feel sorry for Flade for not opening this matters to him. I just want to forget about it because every time I remember what happened I blame my self , fear is enveloping me and it is degrading me as a human. I never speak because since I was young I was not given the chance to speak up for my self by my tita whom my mom entrusted me. I just became free when my mom knew about my tita's treatment to me.

Clyde, Kristel and Crisha are my close friends when we were in Senior Highschool. They were supportive in my writing journey and I am also to them. Every achievement I attain, I always remember them. With them I became free fo speak for my self without being judged. Until we enter college, Clyde confessed to me about his feelings but I can't reciprocate it because I like someone,it was Flade and also I consider him as my brother. But then Kristel pushed me to him. Clyde and I never became couples everything are just rumors. Clyde didn't gave up and courted me to the point that I am being pushed to the edge and being choked. I also noticed some changes in Kristel and Crisha they are becoming distant and sometimes would lie to me. Tinn told me that they are even talking behind my back but I stayed silent and nothing changed about my treatment to them. I know that they are the ones spreading rumors about me back then until now.

One day Clyde requested me to join him in a party but I was shocked when we went to a bar because of my annoyance I left him while he was enjoying and drinking with his friends. I call for a taxi and I didn't know that he followed me and he got into an accident. I visited him in the hospital because I feel so guilty that time but then Kristel get mad at me and ended our friendship. After that incident I stopped my writing because while I was rising my trusted friends are staying away from me. I don't want to speak against them again because I know that they will not let me win. I am aware that there are people who hate me and won't believe me. What hurts the most is that I lose the closest people that I considered as my family. But then right now I earned some courage and self-esteem to my self because of the people who truly love me.