candlelight

christmas event

as time goes by, i think he knows the feelings i have for him. sometimes i greet him when we accidentally passed each others, dia ngebales sapaannya sih, dan reaksi gue setelahnya jadi alasan kenapa dia bisa tau, it's obvious.

somehow this is getting so tired, kayaknya dia gasuka gue deh? tapi kok dia masih baik banget sama gue?

;;

gue dapet tawaran ngepanit buat natal sekolah, and when i hear the news that dia juga jadi panitia natal. wah seneng banget gue!

bener aja, i have so much interaction with him. dibonceng, dianterin beli konsum, diajak ngobrol. siapa sangka yang selama ini ujug ujug cuma berani nyapa, bisa jadi begini.

pertama kali dibonceng sama dia pas lagi ngamen buat nyari dana natal, waktu itu kita mau pindah tempat and all of my friends tease me to go with him. dia nya mau, what in the world. and he did the iconic thing that people really adore, nurunin footsteps. i mean, seriously, i wasn't ready for this.

all of my friends keep teasing me as i get into his motorcycle, of course my face turns into a human tomato (re: full-on blush mode) i try to play it cool, like, "oh, stop it, you," but deep down, i'm internally doing a happy dance. it's like they just hit the blush button, and there's no turning it off.

the next interaction was when he take me to the bakery to buy some bread. well, emang sih obrolan kita hari itu cuma seperlunya aja. dia cuma nanya exact place tempat rotinya, but who cares? i'm doing that with my crush.

kita masih bisa kaya gini lagi gak ya kalau natalan sekolah udah selesai?

to be continued.

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i just want him to know that i really cherish every moments i spent with him, life's just better with these snapshots of happiness, and i'm holding onto them like treasures.

i always find myself thinking a lot about what it would be like if my crush feel the same way as me. it's like typing out this emotional message in my head, hoping for a reply that either eases the uncertainty or adds a whole new layer of excitement. i can't help but imagine different scenarios, wondering if they'd be into it too.

i hope someday he'll like me too.