Summer

How it all came rushing back

Monday morning came quicker than ever. I was sitting in English class with Mel telling her all about Charlie. Mel didn't really say anything she just sat and listened to everything I had to tell her. She was really good about the whole thing, normally she would be freaking out.

Wait, why isn't Mel freaking out, Mel always freaks out about my family drama.

"Mel what's wrong? Was it something I said?" She was still just looking at me funny not saying anything. I raised my voice a little "Woman what's wrong?" I started to snap my fingers in front of her face. She finally snapped out of it. "Oh sorry, I just haven't been sleeping well again. What were you saying?" I was sure her not sleeping wasn't the real problem here.

"I was saying that Charlie has come home only because he is sick! He only want to see me because he would never get the chance to in the future." I almost starts to tear up again. "Summer what do you expect him to do? Just die? Die never getting to meet his beautiful little sister. If I was dying I would want to meet my other siblings too" I sat there and thought about what she was saying. It's kind of made sense to me now. Maybe, just maybe he never had a good enough reason to come and see me before but now he does.

Most of the day I was just thinking about everything Charlie had said to me. Mel was right. I hate to admit when I'm wrong but I really was. I over reacted when I shouldn't have. Charlie is dying and finally came to see me and all I did was tell him to go away.

When I got home I ran to Charlie's room to find that he wasn't there so I ran back to dads study to ask dad where Charlie was. Dad said he had gone down to the shops to get something for dinner because he was going to cook dinner.

"Why is Charlie cooking dinner?" Dad just looked at me and smiled "because your mother is coming round to met him so Charlie wanted to make dinner"

When Charlie came home from the shops he walked to my room and said hello then started to cook dinner.
After I finished all my homework that I needed to catch up on. I went to the kitchen to help Charlie with dinner. I set the table and cleaned up a bit.

I heard a knock on the from door. Charlie just tensed up when he heard that knock. He hadn't seen mum since he was little. This would be his first time meeting his first adoptive mum.

After they both said hello dad came into the living room and then we all went and sat in the kitchen dad took over cooking so Charlie could get to know mum.

Mum was telling Charlie about all these family sorties. You could see that Charlie was getting upset because he never got to be there. Mum never wanted to get Charlie up but she knew she had to. Charlie always knee mum loved him.

Charlie had only been home for a little while and it felt normal coming home to him. Knowing our family was almost a full family. I know mum and dad would never get back together but this is as close as it was going to get.

After everyone had finished dinner I helped Charlie clean up while mum and dad were talking. Mum and dad don't talk a lot any more so when they do its never a good thing. They usually just talked about who was going to have me for the first half of the holidays, they always fought about that.

When mum and dad came back into the kitchen Charlie and I were almost done with the dished and were now just cleaning the table of crumbs and things. Mum and dad started to get some things from the fridge and make desert. By the looks of it we were going to have chocolate pudding with vanilla custard. One of my favourite deserts growing up as a kid.

We all sat down on at the table again and ate desert. The topic was still Charlie, I knew it would be like this for the rest of the night no doubt. It was interesting at first but now it was kind of becoming boring.

"Charlie is great and he had done a lot with his life and I am so proud of him but for a minute could we please talk about something else." Everyone just looked at me funny as if I had completely missed something. I know I zoned out a little while ago but I couldn't have missed much. "Hunny Charlie was just saying that his cancer has spread through out his body and the doctors have given up hope of trying to cure him.

Oh my gosh I did not just say that out loud just then! I wanted to slap my self so hard! "Oh my gosh Charlie I am so sorry I didn't mean it like that."

"Summer it's okay I know you weren't paying attention and didn't mean anything by it." Charlie was pretty calm about it unlike mum and dad there faces. Words cant describe how annoyed they looked. 

"its getting pretty late I should probably go to bed" I stood up swiftly and walked over to Charlie. Gave him a hug goodnight and the same with mum and dad. As i walked to my room i could hear mum and dad apologising for my behaver. 

I didn't sleep much that night as I was thinking about Charlie. How much time did he have left? would he make my 18th birthday? there where so many unknowns that were bothering me. I would wake up all through the night. I just couldn't get to sleep. I knew tomorrow at school would be hard. School was already a struggle as I was falling be hide and this would just make it even worse. 

Charlie, my brother has cancer that can not be cured. He came home to tell us he was dying. When other news could I possible get that was worse than this. But knowing my luck a lot worse is to come.