Summer

Not what I expected

Tears started running down my cheeks as I ran to my car. I couldn't believe my eyes. Isaac was sitting in the food court with Brook on his lap and they where just all over each other. I couldn't hear Mel running after me but I really didn't care anymore I just wanted to get away. As I was running I wasn't watching where I was going and just my luck I managed to run into Troy. I didn't even have to look up to know it was him. Troy always wore the same deodorant and it always smelt amazing. It's a smell you never forget.

"Summer what's wrong!?" For once in his life Troy actually sounded concurred. He asked me about 3 or 4 times what was wrong. Every time I tried to speak, I just chocked. Nothing would come out. Next thing I knew I'm hugging Troy his arms squashing me like always. Yes, Troy gave the best kinds of hugs. The tight squishy ones. The ones where you could feel his heart beating.

Troy gave my keys to Mel so she could get back home, then he took me home. For the rest of the afternoon I just talked to Tory about everything. I let all of my anger and emotions out. To be completely honest it felt like nothing had changed. We still acted like we where dating. The only problem was we wern't. The feeling where all there still but the status wasn't. After what happened at the shops I think it was only a matter of days before I dump Isaac's pathetic ass. Who even does that! Why ask someone out if your going to be all over every other girl.

But what I witnessed was disgusting. Right in front of my face Isaac was making out with Brook! I know she was a bitch but I didn't think she was that bad. I trusted Isaac I told him everything. He knew I was hurt by Troy last time and I couldn't go through that again. So why would be do this to me? WHY!? I mean if your going to make out with other girls don't do it in public and when you're about to met your girlfriend. Actually don't do it at all.

Troy was really good about it. He sat next to me on my bed and just hugged me while I babbled on about my so called "boyfriend" to him. It felt really strange actually. Usually when I was bitching it was to either Lilly, Mel or Jen.  About an hour or so later Mel showed up at my place. So I had my two best friends by my side. It was a weekend so they both stayed the night. Mum really likes Troy so him staying the night never bothered her.

I waited till the morning to call Isaac about the other day. Troy, Mel and I had been up all night making the perfect way to dump Isaac. Mel had said I should post it on Facebook so everyone could see it but I didn't have enough Facebook friends for that. I really wanted to get him back for being such an asshole. I trusted him and even fell for him and then he just has to fuck me around like everyone else has.

We had decided that we would do it at school, that would  just make it even better. I didn't want to really badly hurt him, I'm not like that but I just wanted to piss him off. We had decided to pour a milk shakes on his head as I told him. It was never that easy with Troy though. We ended up putting stink bombs in his locker and some other shit. Anything else you could imagine we did for about a week, then we got cought by one of the teachers. Troy, Mel and I did got detention out of it but it was totally worth it.

Tuesday night I was at Troys place and we where just talking about everything like always. "I'm so sick of every ones shit. They way people pretend to be someone there not just to fit in or be liked by others. The way everyone complains about fake ass people but there fake them self. You can't complain about how people treat you if you let them. You can't complain about how someone treats you if that's what your pretending to be." I wanted to keep rambling on but I know Troy wanted to say his opinion like always.

"Just take a step back for a moment and ask your self  'is this who I really am? Am I truly this person?' Because if the answer is no then you need to change yourself. Stop pretending to be someone your not and become the person you truly are because by doing this you will attract the right kind of people not like Isaac. You will attract people like me" As he said this he had one of his big cheeky smiles on his face. And from that moment I knew I still liked him. I knew I had always had feelings for him that I pushed away, so I finally let them be free.

I don't know what came across me but the next thing I knew I was kissing Troy. It felt just like the first time. We stopped, looked at each other then just started laughing. I have no idea why but we just did. It felt just like the old times. Perfect. The thing I loved the most about this whole thing was he wasn't mad at me for picking Isaac first off. I thought he would be a little mad but he wasn't showing any signs that he was.

I always second guessed myself,  so picking Isaac then stuffing up then picking Troy I was worried I would stuff up again. Not that it was my fault Isaac cheated on me, but  I still felt I messed up somehow and thats why Isaac did what he did to me. I lost Troy once and I don't need to lose him again. This time I wouldn't second guess myself so much and I would go with the flow of things. I knew there where a few things i still needed to open up to Troy about but one day I would get there. Troy loved me for me and I loved him for him. Now to wait for him to actually ask me out.