Desire (completed)

•Chapter 1•

Chapter 1: Hot guys and cussing

I watched as trees and buildings fly past the window as I tried to tune out my moms rambling.

"-look, it's okay to... Have fun once in a while. You know get dirty. What's the term teenagers use these days?... Oh, fuck 'em, then leave 'em"

My eyes widen at the subject. I've already had the sex talk enough times.

Seven to be exact.

Oh, the pain.

"Mom! Stop" I wine covering my ears "I'm a virgin." I lie, my mother looks at me with a knowing look that says I'm-not-stupid.

"Fine, fine. I was just telling you," She says facing the road.

"You've told me enough times already," I complain " I don't need to be told anymore."

My mother sighs "I just want you to be ready for when it happens, because when I lost my virginity, it was so awkward because my parents didn't end up giving me the talk. He ended up doing it all wrong, which I don't understand how he did. You only slide it in then-"

"Okay, mum. Stop! Please!" I plead covering my ears. Just because I've actually have had sex doesn't mean I like talking about it.

Especially with my mother.

"Okay." She laughs.

After a few minutes the college comes into view, it's not that fancy. Just a few tall buildings near each other, garden and grass here and there.

"Here we are." She says turning off the ignition. She just sits there, her hands wrapped tightly around the steering wheel, an empty look on her face.

"Mom?" I ask reaching over and forcing one of her hands off the wheel. "If you want me to stay I can for a while."

She looks at me and shakes her head, a tear falls from her eye.

"No, I'll be fine. It'll just take a little while to be used to living alone."

I look at her sadly. She hasn't taken my fathers death too lightly. Not that I expect her too. They loved each other more than themselves.

"Come on sweetie." My mother says wiping away the fallen tears. We both get out of the car and grab my bags from the back.

Once she hands me my bags she stands there fiddling with her hands.

"Will you come back for the funeral? It might take me a while to plan it." She says. Nodding my head, I drop the bags and pull her into a hug.

"Everything will be okay." I assure her rubbing her back. She nods her head.

"I better go, but remember to call me." She says, I smile at her and nod.

"I will mom, bye."

She pulls me in one last hug before speeding away.

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Blowing out a bit of breath I drop the bags on the floor, before flopping onto the bed. I've finally made it to my dorm after climbing a billion stairs, man did invent the elevator for a reason. Why doesn't this place have one? I lay there for a good few minutes, before I get my lazy ass up and put away my things.

*

I throw the bags under my bed and grab the dark blue bra and panties I left out and walk into the bathroom for a shower.

I throw my clothes off before getting under the streaming water. I wash my hair and body before getting out. I dry myself before slipping on the bra and panties. My brows knot together when I go to reach for my clothes.