Desire (completed)

•Chapter 27•

Chapter 27: baby matters.

Everything seems to have slow down.

My movements became lazy and my heart began to race.

I'm pregnant.

Logan and I have a child.

I took the other two tests. They too, came out positive.

I collapse, my body too weak to stand. I'm not sure what to feel. Happiness, anger, hope? My thoughts race through my mind in a frenzy.

I place my hands over my stomach and stare down at it. Tears swell up in my eyes and I let them fall free.

I'm pregnant.

I look up at the ceiling.

"I'm sorry dad." I whisper because I feel like I've let him down. The tears come out quickly and my sobs echo around the room. I pull myself to me feet and throw myself around the room knocking everything over.

I pull the drawers out and fling the clothes in them across the room. A pack of condoms fall beside me and I laugh staring at them. I grab my phone and call Megan. I have to tell someone. She doesn't pick up. Makes sense, she's probably in class.

So I do the unthinkable. I call Ella. Surprisingly she picks up and I'm not sure if I'm happy or angry.

"Ash? Hey..." Her voice rings through the phone. She hears my cries and immediately gets worried.

"Ash are you okay? Are you at your dorm? Do you want me to come over?" Her words come out in a quick rush and I can hear her running up the stairs.

"Hey, it's alright. I'm coming."

And she does. She rushes through the door. She looks wildly around the mess and finds me collapsed again on the floor. She rushes down and sits beside me pulling me in for a well needed hug. I clutch her closely and cry.

I'm not sure if I'm happy or scared. Mostly scared.

"What's wrong?" She asks, which makes me sob harder. So we sit there. Me sobbing and her running her hands through my hair telling me that everything will be okay. When I finally calm down I pull back.

"Sorry about your..." I point to her shirt. She glances down at the snot and tears covering her shirt, she shrugs.

"What's wrong?" She asks again. I close my eyes tightly.

"I'm pregnant." I whisper the words quickly still not believing them. She stares at me shocked.

"Oh."

Yeah.

"Your pregnant." She says again and I nods the tears swelling up in my eyes again.

"It's okay. It'll be okay. You'll be okay" She pulls me in again for another hug.

I sob. "It's not me I'm worried about, it's Logan. What if he doesn't want it?"

Ella pulls us back and stares at me, "you sure it's Logan's?" She asks and I pull an offended face.

"Yes, I haven't been with anyone else. I'm not like that." I say glaring at her. She shrinks away laughing softly with no humour.