help me nick and charlie

chapter two

nick's pov:
Today charlie and I have to meet at his house, I can't wait to see him! I really hope that ben, his boyfirend, isn't there too.
we always spend time together at school, but being with him and also just him is something special for me.

I would like to tell you a little about myself, but there isn't much to say in reality. I live in a not so big house with my parents, my brother went to live in fra last year when he was 22. he always said he wanted to ive alone so that he wouldn't hear dad and mum arguing, and dad ia think of going there when he has the chance to leave mum, but they dont know this.
A lot of girls say i'm a nice guy, but I honestly don't know what to think besides, I don't really listen to what people, But the I don't even know, have to say.

It's 2pm and my parent's screams woke me up, for the ten time. yes, I like sleeping!
I really why they are together if they don't love each other... It would be bullshit to say that they are still together for me because I havn't existed for them for a while now

I've been with my girlfirend for almost two months, her name is imogin and sge is a really nice girl. When I think about the fact that I am with her just to make my parents happy. I think I'm a terrible person. The point is, I don't like girls, I've never liked them. When I met Charlie, we were 3 years old and we were little, and I immediately realized that there was something "different" about me.
my dad is 2000% homo[hobic snd my mom too, but at least she keeps her comments to herself.

I've been dreaming of having a future with chralie for years now, more than best firends to make me understand, but now he is with that guy I don't like at all and is the exact opposite of me, comfirms that i'm not his type.
char dosen't know that I'm gay, I don't want him think I might like him, in that case it would have ruined our relationship and I don't want that to happen. It would be nice to him just for me, but now I've been living for years with the fact that i will never be able to have anything other than a simple firendship with him... alwasy better then losing him.

I have to be at carlie's house in half an hour, it's less then a ten minute walk from my house and I just have to put my shoes on and brush my teeth.

I leave the house very early but it's bettter this way, not hearing all those screaming, but just a few birds chirping, it's definitely relaxing.
I can't wait to see him/ I see him everyday at school and I cant get enough of him.

I arrive at the door of his house and ring the bell, I have a smile that's worse than the smile of those guys in a toothpaste commercials.
someone opens the door but the person I see is not charlie. my smile disappears instanly the moment I realize who is in front of me.

"your firend is here!!" ben yells at charlie who is upstairs.

" I'm his best firend, just to update you" it pissed me off when he does that.
then it's me who has known him for 14 years, they've been together for two years, i think, but it's like they've known each other for two minutes.

" yeah whatever, I dont care!" he always has this arroganrt tone. I just can't understand how such a rude person could exsit.

charlie comes down the stairs and comes towards me to greet me. He has very simple black shorts that come up to the keens and a blue shirt with a small side writting, he's really nice.

" hi char" I hug him tightly to me and it is these situations that I understand how strong my love for him is

"Hi" he quickly detaches himself from the embrace and then turns his garz to that animal who has as a boyfirend

"I'm going out" he says taking the cigarettes and the phone

" what time do you come back?"

" How the fuck do I know?" he looks at him wrong, but what pissed me off is the tone he uses

"sorry you're right. I love you, see you later love" I love you...these words echo in my head and i constantly feel like something is hitting my heart

" Don't call me like that, I already told you it disgusts me" he slams the door and leaves the house

I look at charlie , his gaze is on the floor and he is not going to meet his beautiful eyes with mine. hen we're together they alway have a different light from the one it has when it speakes or sees that monster, a much more beautiful and, in some way, comforting light.

"lets go to the room", he says climing the stairs.

we go inside and his room is strangly in order.
he's always been a messy guy and he didn't bother me, it's his mess and I, somhow, feel good about it and so does he. of course. I sit on his bed and look around as if it were the first time i entered that room. On the desk there is only a book and a pen holder, the sofa, where he always kept his clothes in a confusing way, is now empty and there are only two pillows positioned on the side, the bed is completely made with only a few folds while the air smells like smoke (bens fault)

"there is a lot of order" I move my gaze towards him

"yeah.. Ben doesn't like clutter," he admits

"did you do it just for him?"

"No of course not,"he says panicked

"You don't seem convinced"

"What do you want to do?" he asks completely ignoring my statemend and changing the subject

"Netflix and blankets?" it's one of our favorite things of all

"Yep!"

We lay down on his double-size bed and watch "All the bright places" on netflix. charlie has his head resting om my shoulder and I just smile to see his little face reflected in the computer screen.
He must have been very tired as he fell asleep hugging me. I trun the computer off and put it on his side without moving much, I get comfortable and in a short time i fall asleep too.

We didn't think we were doing anything bad...