Crazy me

Smiles

I sat there. He didn't know I was looking at him. Craving to hear his voice. He didn't know who I really was. And I bet he didn't like the girl on the outside either. His adorable sad face just made me want to melt. And he was so nice.

I ran my fingers through my hair for the fiftieth time that spell. I was nervous as hell and I had no reason. It's not like I was going to talk to him. Plus I text him all the time.
Thats different though.
The voice in my head said. You don't think I know that. So many words I wanted to say to him. Just to have a real conversation but when ever I tried. The words just wouldn't come from my mouth.
Just go talk to him.
I wanted to talk to him. But I already knew he didn't like me and I was scared that I might hurt myself more than I already have. I ran my fingers over my face. One of my ringlets from my mop of curly hair got caught in my watch and I slowly pulled it out. My eyes started to water. But I just laughed. That's what I always did when I wanted to cry, laugh or smile as wide as the horizon. But he wouldn't know, he would never know that I was broken inside.
He turned to face me. Well not me but his book and the computer. I veered my glance from him.
He already knows you like him so why not talk to him.
Because!
"Your so obsessed with him" Maddy said.
"Am not!" I snapped back
"You've been staring at him for the whole spell"
"Well I'm wishing and seeing the truth coz me and him. We ain't ever happening"
"Don't be so hard on your self. Of course your going to happen. He'd be lucky to have you"
I smiled. A wide smile.
I so hoped he did like me. So hoped that maybe we could be.
And then the bell went. And the whole class was a rush. Everyone was trying to put there computers away. But me and Oliver. And in that rush I saw my whole world crumble to the ground. My dreams are ruined. I just wanted to die.