Walking back home // Noco

Your best American girl 7

"But big spoon, you have so much to do, and I have nothing ahead of me..."

I was hanging out with Owen all day today at his place. It was probably time that I didn't just stay home during my free time. We were in the living room where the sunlight was seeping through the window panes. The room was dark, only with the windows as a light source. Afternoon slowly turned into night, so it was pointless. He munched on his french fries as he struggled to put his feet up. I look down at my phone, thinking about a lot of things. I don't know, I was just out of it lately. Even Owen slowly started to notice. I've been trying my best to keep my mind off of Emma and my slow-developing feelings for Cody. "Buddy, what's wrong? Did you eat enough today?" The big guy asked me with concern. He and I both don't understand what's going on with me. I chugged on the cold Mountain Dew can and just shrugged.

I glanced back at my phone and noticed the time. "Sorry, Owen. I have to go now." I apologized. I rose from my seat and headed out. God, I'm embarrassed. I have never been this stressed out. I contemplated my life decisions as I walked home. The stars sparkled brighter than ever tonight. 'Maybe if a shooting star fell, Emma would come back.' I sarcastically thought. I took out my phone and earphones. The music flowed as I imagined a world. A fantasy world. I was surrounded with mountains and houses high enough to reach the sky. Clouds glowed like never before. I could jump so high. The stars fell and looked like gems. I was mesmerized. I was in a dream. Anyone could dare to imagine a scenario like I did. But, before I knew it, I was home. I snapped out of the weird trance I was in.

For the first time in months, I felt... Happy. I felt okay. I opened the door of my home, and was welcomed by the overwhelming silence. I slammed the door and I don't know what came over me, but I just sobbed. I realized how many years it'll take until we're graduating high school. I had nothing planned for my future. I always thought I did, because I had so many thoughts... Ideas! But, I never settled on ONE THING. Emma was so full of ambition. Sigh. I wiped off the tears that flowed down my face. I already had a rough day. Well, it was boring, so I don't know if I could consider it rough. I walked over to the kitchen and opened the pantry. I was starving. I slowly ran out of food as days went by. I still had to wait for my allowance.

KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK!! Somebody was at my door. I was wondering who would knock this late. I peeped through and saw him. His glowing smile facing the peephole. I chuckled to myself and opened the door for him. "Noah!!!" He giggled as he rushed to embrace me. His fragrance, his fluffy brown hair, his warmth... It comforted me. I couldn't help but hug him back. As we broke our embrace, I wondered, "What are you doing here?" That was when he frowned. He showed signs of discomfort. "Oh... I'm sorry. Did I-""Don't worry, Noah. I'm just here to sleep over, if you don't mind. I had an argument with my parents." Oh. Whooooosssssshhhhhhh... The wind started to grow heavy. "Hurry. Come in. It's getting cold." The brunette-haired boy shut the door behind him and smiled once more.

For a few minutes, my room was silent. I looked at Cody and he looked back. I cleared my throat and ruffled my hair up. "So... Are you planning anything for college?" I asked. "Hm... Computer science sounds great, to be honest!" He smiled. I looked straight at the window and looked at the teal-eyed teen. "Hey, do you wanna go on top of the roof?" He nodded, and I opened the window that revealed the somber night. The wind lulled a melancholic tune, and we stood atop of the first floor's roof. Then, we made our way up to the actual roof and the wind grew colder. I brought my knees up to my chin.

I sniffled and just stared at Cody. His beauty shone in the moonlight, and I was in utter awe. I sighed. "I never really understood what I wanted in life. I don't even know what to do after I graduate." I complained. I hugged my knees tighter and my eyes started to become blurry. Tears slowly rolled down my face. "Are you okay, Noah?" His eyes showed concern. Cody placed his hand on my shoulder. I shook my head and buried my face deeper. "It's fine to not have a dream. Just focus on what you love most. You love writing and reading, don't you?" I stayed silent. He was silent as well. I slowly raised my face and looked at him. He was looking at me this entire time.

Badum. Badum. Badum. My heart was beating so fast. I scooted over a little closer to the teal-eyed boy. Badum. Badum. We were so close to each other. I felt my face starting to warm up. I was so nervous and I was shaking. It was all silent and we only heard the sounds of the wind. Cars zoomed by every two to ten minutes. I don't know why, but I was just so caught up in the moment that I couldn't help but kiss him. I opened my eyes, and his eyes just sparkled. I widened my eyes and just apologized. Cold sweat was running through my body. "I-i'm sorry, dude. Let's just... Go back to my room, and never talk about this.

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