Cries of Hell season 3 Polaroids

Abandonment issues canon event

i love having friends the only thing that scares me is that they're gonna leave me I used to have this best friend I loved her she made my life better but at the end of the year she got busy and didn't have time to conversate now it's quiet out friendship is in the 🗑️ even at work yesterday we didn't even look at each other we didn't even say hi to each other I was gonna text her fiance asking if she still has that tapestry I gave her if not that's good just make it look like we never knew each other at work I can't even handle being near her I was fine letting my issues eat me up inside I didn't want to confront my problems I don't even want my problems their. but it's ok if we're not friends I already have ppl that love me like my children Chloe and Cheeto and my friends like Amelia and Nick💖 and my other friends fuck important  things like family their never their for me

u know another thing about abandonment issues I feel like it repeats last night I had a nightmare I was driving in a neighborhood with 2 ppl I used to be friends with I was dropping them off at their house and it was kinda sad cuz I saw them get out and leave back into their house I saw 2 people I loved and cared about leave me walking away from me not looking back am I for real a shitty person that I deserve people that love or like being friends with me are just gonna leave me 

so u know how I talked about a certain person being a part of my canon event a few chapters ago omg I didn't know being an author has powers of foreshadowing cuz omg Brendan was a part of my canon event he was around my TikTok page for a reason I can't followed him on tiktok again and he also followed me back and we had good catch up conversation and it was just weird I was still on tiktok just scrolling through and I saw a little quote "and if your not here to stay, I'm happy the universe allowed your soul to stop by" I felt something in me tingle idk how to explain it kinda like how your phone vibrating with a notification so I saw Brendan om tiktok and I followed him he followed me back and the conversation started

then we started snapping each other on Snapchat but that didn't last long :( we only talked to each other for a week maybe less but that's it last time we spoke on in December of 2023 he blocked me on the yikyok and snap like I said Its ok if he didn't have to stay for too ling but im am happy we talked for little but tye weird thing is while I had to look up our conversation on tiktok he unlocked me like is account wasn't instable anymore am I gonna look into it no I am not I sadly do remember the last snap I sent him it was me with a cigarette in my mouth trying to light it with a candle and caption was "I heard smoking increases the risk of imitation and I wanna be important"- Brandon Rogers and he left me on read and unadded me so I'm done would I like to see Brendan in the face again yes I just wanna make sure he's ok I mean ik he is just talking to him I left a type of happiness again it feels go to be happy 

U know something about good students here they can really care about u like I told some of the students here that I was gonna leave soon cuz GUESS WHO FAILED A DRUG TEST so they all got worried like they said they won't see me and now that winter break is over I saw one of my favorite students and she saw me and gave me a hug💖 I love Gracie I should write about my favorite students here ans why actually I might as well i am almost done here