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Waking up was even harder than falling asleep. When I finally sat up and peeled my eyes open I noticed Matteo has already left for breakfast. At least that meant I had time to get ready.
Theodore. I'm so scared, what if I mess it all up. What if he doesn't like me. I've always been scared of relationships, especially now when someone finally likes me. But what if he's lying and just pretending, what if all he says is a lie, a joke, what am I supposed to do. Just trust him? I don't know.
When I arrived at the great hall Theodore didn't even look at me. Did I do something wrong? When he spoke to me, the whole world stopped. What do I do? I just nod. I feel like I'm going to throw up, my whole body is shaking.
When it was finally time for hogsmeade, Theodore took my hand and escorted me outside where he gave me roses. I have never received roses before. Strange, they were arranged in a beautiful heart shape. It didn't give me the thrill I expected I'd get when receiving flowers. With the flowers he also gave me a little pink box, inside it contained a necklace. It had a little envelope charm that could open, it contained a little letter that read "I love you". By now I was already blushing like there was no tomorrow. He is adorable, but it reminded me that he didn't really know me. Because he doesn't even know my favorite colour, how could he, we just met. What if he never gets to know me and I'll have to pretend my whole live. Or he doesn't like me when he does know.
"Whats wrong? You look worried?"
"It's nothing I'm fine. Thank you these are really beautiful."
"Yeah I bought them yesterday"
"That's nice" looks like he's also quite new at this dating thing, because he obviously doesn't know what I meant by fine.
The three broomsticks were definitely different from previous bars I've been to. It was very crowded.... it's fine I'm fine, I hate crowds. I always imagined my first date to be romantic and quite, peacefull. Where we could get to know each other. But I guess this is fine. I hope this is fine. Maybe my attire is a bit much. I'm wearing a leather skirt with fishnets underneath, boots and a green shirt with a v-neck. It's fine. By the time we reached our designated table I was starving because I haven't eaten all day because of nerves.
Theodore did most of the talking because I had no clue as what to say, and I doubt I'll remember anything. To calm myself i focused on the food and butter beer, the smell and the sounds. It worked, I could finally relax. Nope here comes the actual eating part. What if I'm too noisy? Or maybe too messy? Should I cover my mouth when I eat? I wish I had someone to tell me what to do, because I desperately need the help. The food was really nice, once I got the hang of eating politely.
"Y/n?"
"Mmmh?"
"Whats wrong?"
"Nothing, it's just I don't know what to do."
"Just look at me"
I looked up seeing his eyes stare back at me. Two brown orbs that controls what one sees. He was looking at me with the friendliest eyes.
"Wow you're beautiful" he compliments me. Butterflies started rising in my stomach and resting at my throat.
"Thank you.. you too" was I suppose to say that? Was it weird to say you too after a compliment? I meant it, but does he know that.
Communicating and compliments has always been hard for me to do.
"Thank you" he awkwardly replied.
When the bill came I expected him to pay, instead he gave me it. So I reluctantly had to take out my purse and pay.
When we arrived back at hogwarts the great hall was already packed. But since I was already full I went straight to my dorm full of disappointment.
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Sorry for the short chapter, I'm struggling with a condition called writers block🤣 enjoy the rest of your day!!!
