What Is This Feeling Gustholomule

The Walk

(Heyyyyy so yea not much to say before this but I'm excited for this one hope you like it) (Art is mine)

Matt's POV

Gus starts running down stairs ahead of me, I'm slowly following behind still trying to process what's happening- am I gay? If I was gay I'd probably be disowned by my mom- no I'd definitely be disowned all my friends would hate me probably including Gus I mean I've never liked a girl- but I might like Gus he's pretty cute- "You coming" Gus interrupted my thoughts "Oh uh yeah" I speed up down the stairs and Gus opens the door and we leave the house.

"How long can you stay" Gus asks as we start heading towards the trail. I freeze, my mom wouldn't care she probably won't even be home, Steve won't be home till later "Probably like 9:00?" I say uncertain is that too late at night I'm not sure. "Ok, wanna just eat dinner at my house then? I'll probably just cook something up since my dad won't be home" Gus says. I just nod for some reason the thought of Gus cooking makes my heart race but I try to hide it. We walk up to the trail which is hidden by a bunch of tree. "So are you and Celine together then?" Gus says looking at me as we walk. I look at him in shock and confusion "Where did you get that idea?" I say still visibly confused. "Oh you and her went to grom together" he says. I laugh and look at him now his face is confused "No she's just a friend, she's actually gay but my friend group were trying to change her I guess." I look down "My friends from Glandus didn't approve of anything that wasn't straight... Im definitely not friends with them anymore." I say with lots of tension and almost a little fear.

"Ugh I just hate your old friend even more now- especially Bria" He says with frustration as he rolls his eyes. "What about you are you seeing someone" I ask nervously but also snarky. "No not yet but I think I might like someone" he says looking at me then turning bright red and looking down. My heart drops- I don't even like him but it really hurts to hear that from him I'm not jealous right? No no no I'm probably just upset that he likes someone and I... don't? I don't really know what it feels like to like someone. But from what I have heard you- wait everything I've heard about crushes I've experienced when around Gus... DO I LIKE HIM. I-I think I do... but he said he likes someone so it's pointless anyway.

"What about you Matt?" Gus asks and my ears start twitching and I start blushing "I-I'm not sure" I stutter. Gus looks down almost upset but it's probably nothing. We continue walking for a while and come upon a big meadow full of flowers and most of them are the kind that don't try to kill you! "Wow this- this is so pretty" I say as all my worries and thoughts just seems to disappear and all I cared about was this lovely moment just me and Gus "Yeah they are really pretty" Gus says as he looks at me with his deep blue eyes and a big cute smile across his face. I'm not even fazed that I can called him cute. Cause I'm pretty sure I like him and there isn't a problem with that right?

Gus POV "Wow this- this is so pretty" Matt says his eyes wide, with a genuine smile on his face. He looks peaceful- I didn't think I'd admire this moment so much but Matt genuinely looks calm he seems like a different person. "Yeah they are really pretty" I say and I can't help admire his dark brown hair with his big white teeth, and his usually tense eyes which have softened so much- they're so pretty. I don't want this to end. I touch pinkies with Matt and he looks at me his face red and his eyes shocked. Does- does he like me? I'm not sure but I don't care I just want to spend like with him. All of a sudden he looks away his face even redder and then- then he locked hands with me... OMT he locked hands with me! My face turns bright red and I look entirely surprised. He looks at me my face still red. Oh my I've never felt this. My stomach curls up so much but it feels nice, his hand is so soft and his grasp is gentle and soothing. My face must be redder than ever. Matt looks away and puts a hand on his neck "oh my titan I love you" I mumble under my breath super quiet. "What did you say?" Matt says his face calming down. My stomach slowly uncurls and my face rests "Oh um nothing" I grab his hand tightly and run into the field looking back at him as he realizes what's happening and runs with me laughing. We run through the field for a few minutes and I have to stop to catch my breath "Tired already?" he laughs as he lets go of my hand. He's so cute "Yea" I respond with a light blush on my face. He looks at me studying my face "Like what you see" I joke "Maybe I do" he says with a smirk and my face just instantly starts to burn red and I cant breathe or even think in that moment, I just look away covering my face with my hand. Matt looks at me concerned and reaches for my arm and I just look at him with tears starting in his eyes.

Matt's POV
I see Gus's face and I don't know what to do. "Gus what's wrong!?" I say worried. Gus falls to the ground and I just sit down next to him as tears fall down. "I'm sorry I was just joking I didn't mean to say something mean" I feel my heart drop, shit I messed it up again. Then he hugs my waist his face digging into my arm. I wrap my arm on his side and look at him. "You didn't do anything wrong Matty- I just... I'm so confused right now I don't know what I'm feeling..." he says. My face turns red... does he like me? "Gus I- I know what you mean" I say. he lets go and just looks at me confused, tears still rolling down his face. "Gus I- I think I like y-" I freeze it's like I want to finish but can't I just hug him that's all I can do right now. "I like you too Matty" he says hugging me back. Time seems to stop and I look at him. He pulls away and looks back at me. My face turns bright red and my ears start twitching again. His face turns red and he pulls out his scroll. "Um we should head back it's getting late it's 8:00 already" he says. I look around and it's almost pitch black. "Oh um yeah I guess we lost track of time" I look away and get up. I offer him my hand to help him get up. He puts his hand on the back of his neck and takes my hand.

"So um did you mean all that" I ask as we start walking home. "Y-yeah I did" he says awkwardly. I don't believe him and I guess he could tell I didn't because he turned to me and looked at me for a second. I looked away anxiously. He grabbed my face forcing me to look at him and I turned bright red and clenched my fists. Then he- he kissed me. I was so shocked I backed away for a second to process what happened my ears started twitching and after a bit I noticed Gus... he looked scared and upset as he just stared at me. Shit he thinks he upset me. I step towards him and he looks at me surprised. I grab his face cheek with one hand and place the other on the back of his neck. His face turned red. I just looked at him for a second. Then I got the courage and kissed him. After a few seconds he kissed me back. We stayed like this for a second then stopped to catch our breath. "W-wow" is all I could say. Both our faces are bright red and we just stood there awkwardly not knowing what to do now "oh shoot it's almost 8:30 and we aren't even home!" Gus says. "Yea we should hurry back" I laugh awkwardly. We look at each other then both burst out laughing. "Titan why is this so awkward" Gus laughs "I don't know" I laugh back. We walk to Gus's house in silence but it's not really awkward silence anymore.

(Ok this was really fun to write so I hope you like it!)