What Is This Feeling Gustholomule

School Drama

(Hi guys so labyrinth runner hasn't happened yet so Matt's still just in construction but hunting pallisman has please bear with me <3 Teehee this one has lots of Angst hence the Penelope Scott 👀 also remember that Gus's friends don't know him and Matt are friends yet.

Gus POV:

I had gotten ready for school while Matt was in the bathroom doing his hair, we had to stop at Matt's house so he could change. I was waiting outside playing with Emmiline waiting for the short boy. Matt walked out in his construction uniform with his bag over his shoulder. My dad had flown us over to his house on his way to work but he had to leave so I was in charge of flying now I turned Emmiline into a staff getting ready to hop on. "Where's your dad?" Matt asked looking around. "He had to go so I'll be your schoufer!" I said with a big grin and my hands on my hips. Matt laughed. "I don't know if I trust you flying me." Matt said smugly. "Fine then walk and be late I don't care" I said cockily. Matt groaned and rolled his eyes.

I hopped on Emmiline and held out my hand for Matt. Matt grabbed it and I hoisted him onto the staff. He stood behind me on the staff. I waited for a bit and he slowly almost hesitantly wrapped his arms around my waist. I laughed his face was bright red and he was digging his head into my back in embarrassment. My face admittedly was also pretty red but not near as red as his. I put my arms out to the side to steady myself. I signaled for Emmiline to go, she took off and I steadily steered her towards the school. I heard Matt anxiously squealing and he clung onto my waist very tightly, the side of his head pressed against my back. Come to think of it Matt didn't have a pallisman, so I wonder how he usually got to school. I doubt his mom took him and Steve was probably at work or had to leave for work.

We arrived at the school and I patted Matt on the head as we got off. "That wasn't so bad huh?" I asked leaning towards him my hands on my hips. Matt just smirked to the side rolling his eyes playfully pushing me away. "Oh I've got to go but I'll see you during lunch?" Matt said with a smile. I nodded and Matt ran off behind the school. We had gotten to school 30 minutes early, I usually came at this time but me and Willow were the only ones usually here at this time. "Gus! Come here!" I heard Willow yell for me from the stairs at the front of the school. (She just walked out of the school and didn't see him and Matt with each other) We had health together first period and usually got there early to help clean up the classroom. After my second period which was Witch history, it was so boring. I remembered that I texted Matt to meet at the library.

I started walking to the library and bumped into Luz almost right outside of the library. "Ow, sorry Luz..." I said rubbing my head. Willow was behind her giggling a little in a sweet way. "You're good dude, anyway where are you going in such a rush?" Luz asked raising an eyebrow and helping me up. I looked up and smiled. "I'm going to eat lunch with Matt." Willow stepped up to me and looked me up and down. "Gus isn't he the one who got you sent to detention?" Willow said worriedly. "Well yeah but I-" I tried to speak "Yeah! He also got you kicked out of h.a.s!" Luz added cutting me off upset. "Look guys he was a jerk but-" I said stopping myself as I saw Matt standing outside of the library.

His eyes were wide and he started crying wiping his tears with his sleeve. He ran towards the school exit running past me. My heart sank "Matt wait!" I said trying to run after him. Willow grabbed my shoulder. I couldn't control myself I was so upset. I pushed Willow off me. "Let go! I can't believe you guys! You guys don't trust me! I might be younger but I can be friends with who I want! You don't know him he's changed." I said defensively and upset, I felt my eyes about to water. "Gus I-" Luz tried to say but I wouldn't let her I just ran off towards where Matt had gone.

Matt's POV:

Lunch had just started and my class was right next to the library so I was just waiting for Gus. I never had anyone to eat lunch with so I was excited. We decided to eat lunch in the library which was where I usually ate. I got impatient and thought I'd wait outside the library for him. I heard something outside of the library as I walked towards the exit. I heard Gus and got excited. I could very faintly make out his voice and two others. One of them was familiar (Luz) but I didn't know the other one (Willow). My heart started beating fast I was really excited I had made something for Gus and couldn't wait to give it to him. As I step out of the library about to walk towards him I saw him talking to the human and Willow?! I couldn't hear them perfect but I heard Willow say "Gus isn't he... sent... detention." Oh- they were talking about me... I'm sure he would explain what was happening and why that happened. The human said something like "He... got you... out of h.a.s" my heart sunk. I don't actually know if I had apologized for that. I grabbed the front of my uniform tightly waiting for Gus to speak. I heard him pretty clearly I'm sure of it. He said "Yeah he's a jerk."

My heart sank and those words hurt almost more than anything that's ever happened to me. I grabbed my shirt tighter. Gus saw me and I couldn't figure out his expression, he was too far away. I wasn't mad I was upset I hated myself. I treated Gus terribly. My eyes started running I couldn't control my breathing. My skin was tingling, I tried to stop the tears with my sleeve but they kept coming.

I just ran, I ran to the exit and to the side of the school. I sat down and tucked my legs to my chest. I curled up in a ball my arms across my legs. I cried into my knees letting my thoughts run. I was mad but not at Gus. I was mad at myself, I sucked I was a horrible person. The one man I finally trusted, loved and befriended hated me. I was a fool to think anyone could like me. He was probably lying when he said he liked me or when he kissed me. It was probably just payback for what I did to him. I've never had a real friend, i had never had someone treat me well. Gus did though, he was kind even when I wasn't. I pushed him, I made him hate me. God I just shouldn't exist. Bria and her friends were right I'm just a mistake, a waste of space.

"Matt! Mattholomule!?" Gus was yelling for me. His voice sounded... hurt or upset? I saw him turn around the corner. I glanced at him briefly then turned away. I swear he was crying I don't know why he would be though he hated me... right? "I-I'm sorry Gus..." I said squeezing my legs tighter. Gus sat down next to me he reached over and I flinched expecting to be hit or something. He wrapped his arm around me and pulled me closer to him. I looked up releasing some tension. I wiped my tears and hugged him. I don't know why he was being nice I didn't deserve it. "W-why...?" I asked letting go and looking down. "Why what?" Gus said softly but confused as he wiped his tears. "Why are you so goddamn nice!" I shouted, I didn't mean to shout but I did. Gus laughed and hugged me. "Matty you mean the world to me! Of course I'm going to be nice to you you're the best person ever!" Gus said softly smiling. I smiled and when he let go my face turned red. A second later I looked down upset again. "But you said I was a jerk... and you seemed like you meant it." I said looking at Gus again.

His gaze was soft and understanding. "Matt you heard me wrong. Luz and Willow hadn't met the new you- the real you. I tried to tell them that you had changed and weren't a jerk ANYMORE. But they kept cutting me off and when I tried to talk I saw you and you ran off." Gus said his hands on my shoulders. "Gus I-I um... I'm sorry I didn't know." I said looking at his smile and soft gaze. Gus chuckled "You apologize too much!" Gus said moving a hand to my cheek. I froze my face turned bright red. Gus looked at my lips and then my eyes asking for permission. I nodded and he leaned in and kissed me on the lips. I grabbed his face and kissed back. We stayed there for a minute or two just enjoying each other's company.

"Uhhhhhh..." someone said from around the corner I couldn't see them because of Gus. I quickly let go of Gus. My face bright red and my ears twitching. Gus looked shocked and turned around. "Oh um hi Willow?" Gus said shakily. Willow burst out laughing. "You can explain later but me and Luz were looking for you so come on." Willow said chuckling. "Oh um..." I said just sitting there as Gus walked over to Willow. "Omt Matt get over here!" Gus said rolling his eyes. "But Will-" Willow cut me off. "Don't worry Gus very much scolded us for making you upset." Willow said with a smile. "That I did..."Gus said awkwardly with his hand behind his neck. I had a giant smile on my face. I loved this man so much. I walked off with Gus and Willow holding Gus's hand.

(This was angsty but really fun to write! ILY GUYS AND FOR TITANS SAKE DRINK WATER AND GET SLEEP!)