If anything happens, I love you

3 am Cheesy noodles

By now the sun was setting through his studio window. He carefully put everything away, before closing the door. When he got back to his shared room, James was lying on the bed reading on his phone. He looked up, as soon as he heard the door creak open. Without a word he pulled the covers back, gesturing for Alex to lay next to him. "Come here kiddo, it's okay." Alex hadn't realized how much pain he was really in, James just held him, alternating gently from rubbing his back and stroking his hair. James handed Alex his teddy bear and smiled "Don't forget about him kiddo he'd get mad/"."He playfully "attacked" Alex with the bear before finally giving it to him. "Now,are you going to tell me why you look like you either smoked weed or have been crying?" Alex giggled quietly. " Crying, definitely. " He sighed, "I'm just scared. I'm not ready to let life go yet, I know no matter how long I get , I'm going to miss you. I'll miss everything, " Alex could feel James's chest "hiccup" but he knew it was from suppressing tears, so he didn't say anything. "You have time, I promise. So what if we don't have forever, at least you'll know that during your whole life, you've always been loved by at least one person" Alex stared at him a little confused, "Who?" James Just smiled smugly, "figure it out. Dummy"Alex thought for a minute , before squeezing James in a hug. " I love you too Bubba."
James laid like that, wrapping his arms around Alex, till they both fell asleep.Around 3, maybe 4 am, Alex sat up in the bed , giggling. He started shaking James awake whilst laughing " Hey! Bro, wanna do something dumb?" James slowly sat up and just looked at Alex confused, " What?" James groaned, "" this better be important or im throwing this pillow." attempting to grab the ramen pillow, before looking back in bewilderment. Alex wasn't having it, he stood up, shoving James's ramen pillow in his face. " Just Come on!"Alex proceeded to lead or rather, drag , the very tired,slightly annoyed James into the kitchen, " Let's do something that we haven't done in a while! Cheesy noodles!!" James smirked " Ahhem, kid, I don't mean to hurt your feelings but, what about that." He gestured vaguely to Alex's feeding tube. Alex tugged on James's arm, giving him "puppy dog eyes."" Oh please!! Remember the doctor said I could pretty much eat anything as long as I don't eat too much, continue to do tube feeds and just be careful!" James looked at Alex with uncertainty,

"I dont-" He began to trail off as he looked down at alex,realizing,his baby brother was hungry for the first time in three months. It also dawned on him, he wont have forever to make memories with his brother. 

He ruffled Alex's hair before grabbing the Mac n cheese  box from the cabinet. 

 " As long as you don't over eat then yes of course I'll make 3 am cheesy noodles with you,dork!" Alex hugged James excitedly.

So that's exactly what they did, Alex loved stirring the pot and James mixed in the cheese. Neither boy knew it, but It was one of the last times Alex had a large appetite, so by the morning the pan was empty.  In the midst of watching Alex happily eating, James felt a pang of guilt. "Hey kiddo  look, " he sighed "We could take a picture together if you want, just so we don't forget today. But,just one!" He would never tell Alex the fact that he wanted the pictures to remember his baby brother, before he lost the opportunity. it wasn't until this night James realized why Alex always loved pictures. Once someone is gone, you can't get them back,so Alex savors every moment in life, capturing all the good memories. Suddenly, a  few pictures didn't seem so bad. 

Alex practically strangled James with how tight he hugged him. It was some of the most fun they've had in a long time.