My Past Our Future

Chapter 19

Lucky for Jack her father let them in. A billion questions popped out of Pulitzers mouth at once as Spencer set Jack down on the couch.

"What is going on? Why is Kelly bleeding? Who is this man?" He asked eyeing Spencer.

"I'll explain later, Jacks hurt and I need you to go get a doctor." She said forcing Pulitzer to look at her. Pulitzer grumbled some thing about the inconvenience of this situation but left to fetch a doctor nonetheless. She rushed over to Jack and kneeled next to him, she grabbed his hand and squeezed it tightly.

"Here Katherine." Spencer said tearing a piece of fabric off her fathers table cloth (he wouldn't be very happy about that) and handed it to her. "Put pressure on the cut it will help stop the bleeding."

Katherine did as he said and pushed the cloth to the gash just below his rib cage. Jack winced and grabbed her arm in response, he quickly recovered and eased back into the couch.

"Hands up Kelly." Spencer said "it will elevate your blood flow." He grabbed Jacks hands and put them over his head. In a split second Jack had a hand knotted in the front of Spencer's shirt.

"Sara... you go find her. I promised I'd bring her back." Jack said his eyes desperate instead of angry.

"I will." Spencer said and yanked out of his grasp.

Nobody moved, the atmosphere was thick with tension. Jack was looking at Katherine and the guilt in her stomach flared up again. She couldn't bring herself to look him in the eyes.

"There's nothing more I can do." Spencer said stiffly. "Just hang in there until the doctor gets here, I'll go look for Sara."

"Thank you." Katherine said giving him a grateful smile. There was another thence second before Spencer left the room. She looked back to Jack her smile falling from her face. She opened her mouth to say something but no words would come out, she had a nasty taste in the back of her throat, almost like someone had poured led into her mouth and made her swallow it. He pulled his cap over his eyes so he didn't have to look at her and she felt her heart shatter in her chest. "Jack, I-"

"Don't say it unless you mean it." Jack said cutting her off. Katherine chewed on the bottom lip and stared at a button on his shirt.

"I'm sorry." She said at last pouring every ounce of her guilt into those words. Jack shifted but didn't pull up his hat to meet her gaze.

"I told you once that I didn't want ya promising nothing you was just gonna take back later, you remember that?" He asked folding his arms behind his head.

"Yes." She said miserably, she wanted to crawl in a hole and die. "I didn't mean for any of this to happen."

"Of course ya didn't, you just made out with my brother for no reason." Jack said his voice so bitter it made Katherine shutter. "My brother!" He said sharply and lifted up his hat so he could glare at her.

"Please let me explain." She pleaded grabbing his arm. "If you just shut up for one lousy minute I could tell you what actually happened!"

"I don't really want to know what happened in his apartment, I'm still an innocent human being I'd rather not-"

"Innocent my foot! Don't pull that crap on me Jack Kelly, you know just as well as I do how this world works!" She spit at him. Jack gave her a dirty look and pulled his hat back over his eyes again. She took a deep breath trying to collect herself, the last thing she needed was to punch Jack while he was still wounded. "Look Jack, if it makes you feel any better Spencer isn't as good of a kisser as you."

It wasn't totally a lie because Spencer and Jack were different in many ways but she figured if she wanted him to forgive her then flattery was her best option.

"U-hmm." Jack said sounding unconvinced.

"It's true! The first time I kissed him he made me!" She said grabbing his arm and shaking him a little.

"What do you mean he made you? You mean he forced you to kiss him? Isn't that illegal?! You mean I can put his sorry a-"

"Jack!" She shouted cutting him off. "It wasn't like that, he made me a deal. He said if I kissed him then he would tell me something I needed to know about your past!"

"Which was?"

"That he was your damn brother!" She snapped.

"Ya could of just asked me." He said looking at her again.

"That's the thing... you wouldn't of told me." She said running her thumb across his fore arm.

"Ya probably right, but it still didn't give youse the right ta kiss him." Jack said his jaw tight.

"Listen Jack, I've been a real idiot these past few weeks. I'm sorry that I hurt you, I didn't want to but the temptation was to great. Spencer... he's just so much like you I couldn't get away from the fact that he kisses like you, and smiles like you, and touches me like you do... I should of never gone down that road. I'm sorry." She said pouring her sole into the apology.

"If he kissed you like I do then why go to him in the first place if it's exactly the same?" He asked.

"Because I couldn't resist the thrill of it, it was so wrong and I couldn't stop myself. I didn't want to stop until I realized something... I realized I didn't love Spencer, I love you!" She said squeezing his arm.

"But... I thought we had established that long ago. Didn't we agree on a future together? If that isn't I love you then I don't know what is." Jack said hiding behind his hat again.

"I was thinking with my head not with my heart. I only thought I loved Spencer, I never considered what my heart felt." She said laying her head down on his fore arm.

"Ya know Kath, I might actually believe ya if I hadn't trusted you so much." Jack said bitterly. "Do you remember when we first got together and I told you I wouldn't go sleeping in other girls beds?"

Katherine nodded weakly, she remembered that quite clearly and she feared where he was taking that sentence.

"Well I kept my word, never once did I pry another girls legs open just for the sake of it. You wanna know why I didn't do it? Because I love you." Jack was looking at her again and his face was as hard as stone. "Last night when I left youse with Spencer I could of gone to any girl I wanted and screwed around with them. But I didn't. Because I love you."

Katherine was crying by now, she wanted to shoot herself for doing what she'd done to Jack. It made it ten times worse to think she had gone home and slept with Spencer while Jack remained faithful.

"I trusted you Kath, I didn't think I had to worry about you. I was just worried I would mess up and you would kick me out, never once did I think it'd be the other way around. I trusted you. I really did." He said. Katherine couldn't look at him anymore, she couldn't stand to see the betrayal etched into his features. She laid her face in her hands and let silent, miserable tears run down her face. She still needed to explain to Jack, he still needed to understand. Maybe Jack could forgive her someday.

But could she ever forgive herself?

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